Fun Stuffs [Ramblings, Really.]
I've been hiding from Real Life for a while now. I mean, I normally ignore my summer assignments until the very last minute. That's pretty much a constant for me. But this summer, I've just been living in the world of Fanfiction and Movies and Books. Just to get out of my life.
It got a lot worse a few days ago, but the situation was, well, it's now more understandable. I've been reading through the really long K/S fics. I really want to reread Enterprise High [by cable69 on FF.net], but I'm working on reading Don't Stop Believing [by Kianspo]. Soo, since that has a ridiculous amount of chapters and such, it'll take a while. I may just put it aside and come back when I actually have my work done.
I mean, I have to annotate a four hundred page book. I have around fifty chemistry questions to answer. I have a Girl Scout Gold Award proposal and project to do. Well, I have the year for that. Not the proposal. I have about a month for that.
But I really don't want to. I've had about two months of sloth and laziness, and I don't want to change that. Like, ever. And now I just realized that there is a GIANT folder of band music that I haven't touched. Oi, my teacher will murder me >.<
I mean, I'm not living on the internet. I hang out with real people all the time [and spend all my money while I'm at it.] Since I'm reading while I'm online, I don't really see that as a huge thing. It's just, I don't want to hide from my life. But it's kinda gotten to the point where it's so ingrained that it's hard. Maybe I'm just having the summer blues. Yeah, it's kinda not weird for me to get really upset over the summer just because I don't see anyone. Pretty normal.
My mother is convinced that I am depressed or something now. I mean, really, I'm not. I know full well all that's going on and I finally let it sink in. I'll act like I'm ignoring it, but I'm not. The part that I'm most afraid for is when the picture I have in my mind crumbles. I really need to stop building people up so much in my head. It's really not good for when something bad happens.
Well, for a few days, I'll be out of the house, away from the internet. I'll be able to relax and get what I need to do done. And then I'll be able to step back into life. Right through the door. I'm being pretty positive about this because recently, I've found that it's good to be positive about almost everything. Not to the point of fantasy, but enough so that one is not too depressed to even try for anything. I've luckily never been that way and I don't plan to be.
This is a whole mess of tangents and random minutia.
TL;DR: My life is a bit of a mess and I'm working to getting it better again. Yay positivity!
It got a lot worse a few days ago, but the situation was, well, it's now more understandable. I've been reading through the really long K/S fics. I really want to reread Enterprise High [by cable69 on FF.net], but I'm working on reading Don't Stop Believing [by Kianspo]. Soo, since that has a ridiculous amount of chapters and such, it'll take a while. I may just put it aside and come back when I actually have my work done.
I mean, I have to annotate a four hundred page book. I have around fifty chemistry questions to answer. I have a Girl Scout Gold Award proposal and project to do. Well, I have the year for that. Not the proposal. I have about a month for that.
But I really don't want to. I've had about two months of sloth and laziness, and I don't want to change that. Like, ever. And now I just realized that there is a GIANT folder of band music that I haven't touched. Oi, my teacher will murder me >.<
I mean, I'm not living on the internet. I hang out with real people all the time [and spend all my money while I'm at it.] Since I'm reading while I'm online, I don't really see that as a huge thing. It's just, I don't want to hide from my life. But it's kinda gotten to the point where it's so ingrained that it's hard. Maybe I'm just having the summer blues. Yeah, it's kinda not weird for me to get really upset over the summer just because I don't see anyone. Pretty normal.
My mother is convinced that I am depressed or something now. I mean, really, I'm not. I know full well all that's going on and I finally let it sink in. I'll act like I'm ignoring it, but I'm not. The part that I'm most afraid for is when the picture I have in my mind crumbles. I really need to stop building people up so much in my head. It's really not good for when something bad happens.
Well, for a few days, I'll be out of the house, away from the internet. I'll be able to relax and get what I need to do done. And then I'll be able to step back into life. Right through the door. I'm being pretty positive about this because recently, I've found that it's good to be positive about almost everything. Not to the point of fantasy, but enough so that one is not too depressed to even try for anything. I've luckily never been that way and I don't plan to be.
This is a whole mess of tangents and random minutia.
TL;DR: My life is a bit of a mess and I'm working to getting it better again. Yay positivity!