Friday night blues
Well, the old man is in MD at his cousin's wedding and I'm here in bloomington. I realize that I depend on him way too much. I literally have NOTHING to do all weekend except something for work. And I could have backed out and chose not to because I otherwise probably wouldn't have left the house. Its a good think I love my job. Apparently its all I have thats consistent and needs me back ...
I talked to Dallas for the first time tonight. We were talking about everything and catching up and somehow I wasn't prepared for the 'how's tara?' question. Ugh, I got a little sick. I think I just started rambling and suddenly I realized she was telling me she had to get going. It was at that time that I became aware that I'd been talking rapid fire for who knows how long and I'd let myself relive it yet again except this time I subjected Dally to it. She said she'd call me back after her NA meeting (yeah, I think thats narcotis anonymous) so I must not have scared her off too bad. IDK She basically said that the ball is in her court so that's all I can do. Which is the worst part. I can't handle this being helpless thing. I have fully learned my lesson ... so you can stop teaching me one. I'm sorry and ready when you are ...
I AM NOT COLA! GODDAMNIT!
I talked to Dallas for the first time tonight. We were talking about everything and catching up and somehow I wasn't prepared for the 'how's tara?' question. Ugh, I got a little sick. I think I just started rambling and suddenly I realized she was telling me she had to get going. It was at that time that I became aware that I'd been talking rapid fire for who knows how long and I'd let myself relive it yet again except this time I subjected Dally to it. She said she'd call me back after her NA meeting (yeah, I think thats narcotis anonymous) so I must not have scared her off too bad. IDK She basically said that the ball is in her court so that's all I can do. Which is the worst part. I can't handle this being helpless thing. I have fully learned my lesson ... so you can stop teaching me one. I'm sorry and ready when you are ...
I AM NOT COLA! GODDAMNIT!