Color Me Embarrassed
I guess she wins. Good game. Life goes on.
The only thing that kills me is that I ACTUALLY DO STILL CARE and I can't stop giving her the satisfaction of my being sad... oh well. So there were like 5 facebook messages between us recently and then the ones before that are like 2yrs old ... and they're so sweet. Its such a weird stark change to look at the wall thread and see the marked difference... it just seems so nonsensical I guess. Good think we didn't run into sis at Pride... that would have sucked to get my ass kicked ... w/e
I'm done talking to a brick wall ... she's not the person I used to be friends with anymore anyhow it seems like. So ... cutting my losses probably isn't a bad thing. I am just still so torn ... like maybe there was something else I could have said that I didn't ... I just don't know what
The only thing that kills me is that I ACTUALLY DO STILL CARE and I can't stop giving her the satisfaction of my being sad... oh well. So there were like 5 facebook messages between us recently and then the ones before that are like 2yrs old ... and they're so sweet. Its such a weird stark change to look at the wall thread and see the marked difference... it just seems so nonsensical I guess. Good think we didn't run into sis at Pride... that would have sucked to get my ass kicked ... w/e
I'm done talking to a brick wall ... she's not the person I used to be friends with anymore anyhow it seems like. So ... cutting my losses probably isn't a bad thing. I am just still so torn ... like maybe there was something else I could have said that I didn't ... I just don't know what