because you changed my life, for the better
this is basically me being super sappy, because I just found out the Yesung is enlisting and I have a lot of feelings for this man.
Kim Jongwoon is not my ultimate bias.
So why am I writing about him?
Because he was my first bias and he's the reason why I started listening to k-pop in the first place, and hence responsible everything that followed from that.
I remember, very clearly, that my first K-pop video was Sorry Sorry, because I saw a friend mention it, but it didn't stand out to me. From there I watched Bonamana.
At the time, I was still very into punk-rock and seeing these men in suits dancing in a lit-up box made me cringe and think, 'this is totally weird, what the hell am I watching'. I thought a few SJ members were gay (I KID YOU NOT) but I will never forget, seeing Yesung when he sang, with Kyuhyun, listen girl, johahae, baby girl, saranghae and from there I realised that I was holding my breath because I found this dark-haired Asian, singing with a weird light swinging above him, attractive. (I had always known my preference was in Asians, but I had never gotten into Asian music, so I stuck to crushing on a family friend /facepalms). I remembered his face, and the fact that I found him attractive, but dismissed it.
But I didn't join the k-pop fandom then. I continued on with my punk-rock phase and disregarded K-pop altogether.
It was only a whole year or so later, around March of 2011, when SHINee released 'Hello' and it showed up on the YouTube homepage, did I watch that, a whole bunch of other SHINee videos, and then finally found myself watching Bonamana again.
It was after that point that I started the googling and the searching up and trying to identify the members and, well, it took a while, but pretty soon I was obsessed with this guy who I found immensely attractive.
For a full three or so months, I explored what Super Junior was, learning about Only13 and Hangeng's departure and all that, and the whole time, I fell more and more in love with this man called Kim Jongwoon.
Even though in about June I changed bias to Ryeowook and then became Henry biased a month or so later, I never stopped loving the man who first introduced me to Super Junior and K-pop.
From him, and Super Junior, I have not only become a fangirl, staying up at atrocious hours on tumblr and having too many feelings, but I have become a better person. I know it sounds stupid and kind of cliche, but from learning their stories and their determination to follow their dreams and strive to do their best, I have learned to persevere through things I probably would haven't been able to if I hadn't learned from them. Through Henry and Zhou Mi and the Only13 situation, I learned that sometimes the strength to keep going is the most admirable thing in the world. Through their tears when they talked about their family and the other members, I have learned to appreciate my own parents and my older brother, all of whom I have had times in which I detested them.
It might be indirect, but if I hadn't gotten into the K-pop fandom, I wouldn't have returned to writing, which had, for so many years, been my hobby and happiness. I wouldn't have met Pim, or Kat, or Claire, or any of the other friends I have made online through K-pop and writing, and they have changed my life too.
I'm rambling, and sorta deviating from the topic, but the point is that all these differences in my life have all stemmed from the fact that I started listening to Korean music, and that's all thanks to Kim Jongwoon; all thanks to Yesung in Bonamana with his damn sexy black hair and amazing singing that made me fall head over heels into a totally different world that was so different from the one I knew, and sometimes makes no sense at all, but I have no regrets and if I had a choice, I would do it all again. I would fall in love with Jongwoon and Ryeowook and Henry and every single K-pop idol all over again; go through the happy times and the sad times and the frustrating times all over again.
To hear that he's enlisting breaks my heart, because even though he's not my bias anymore, I will dearly miss him. I cried when Heechul enlisted and I cried when Teukie enlisted and I will definitely cry when Jongwoon, my first celebrity crush/idol/bias, enlists.
But I will smile and wish you well, because this is only temporary, and there are too many people in the world in love with your voice to ever forget you.
From your weird, crazy dancing, to your mesmerising singing, to the unconditional love you give to your family and your members, I have always admired you and loved you (even though sometimes you drive me crazy, but that's the fun in it, isn't it?).
김종운~ 화이팅！사랑해 ♥
(Kim Jongwoon~ hwaiting! saranghae ♥)
Thank you for changing my life, for the better.
Kim Jongwoon is not my ultimate bias.
So why am I writing about him?
Because he was my first bias and he's the reason why I started listening to k-pop in the first place, and hence responsible everything that followed from that.
I remember, very clearly, that my first K-pop video was Sorry Sorry, because I saw a friend mention it, but it didn't stand out to me. From there I watched Bonamana.
At the time, I was still very into punk-rock and seeing these men in suits dancing in a lit-up box made me cringe and think, 'this is totally weird, what the hell am I watching'. I thought a few SJ members were gay (I KID YOU NOT) but I will never forget, seeing Yesung when he sang, with Kyuhyun, listen girl, johahae, baby girl, saranghae and from there I realised that I was holding my breath because I found this dark-haired Asian, singing with a weird light swinging above him, attractive. (I had always known my preference was in Asians, but I had never gotten into Asian music, so I stuck to crushing on a family friend /facepalms). I remembered his face, and the fact that I found him attractive, but dismissed it.
But I didn't join the k-pop fandom then. I continued on with my punk-rock phase and disregarded K-pop altogether.
It was only a whole year or so later, around March of 2011, when SHINee released 'Hello' and it showed up on the YouTube homepage, did I watch that, a whole bunch of other SHINee videos, and then finally found myself watching Bonamana again.
It was after that point that I started the googling and the searching up and trying to identify the members and, well, it took a while, but pretty soon I was obsessed with this guy who I found immensely attractive.
For a full three or so months, I explored what Super Junior was, learning about Only13 and Hangeng's departure and all that, and the whole time, I fell more and more in love with this man called Kim Jongwoon.
Even though in about June I changed bias to Ryeowook and then became Henry biased a month or so later, I never stopped loving the man who first introduced me to Super Junior and K-pop.
From him, and Super Junior, I have not only become a fangirl, staying up at atrocious hours on tumblr and having too many feelings, but I have become a better person. I know it sounds stupid and kind of cliche, but from learning their stories and their determination to follow their dreams and strive to do their best, I have learned to persevere through things I probably would haven't been able to if I hadn't learned from them. Through Henry and Zhou Mi and the Only13 situation, I learned that sometimes the strength to keep going is the most admirable thing in the world. Through their tears when they talked about their family and the other members, I have learned to appreciate my own parents and my older brother, all of whom I have had times in which I detested them.
It might be indirect, but if I hadn't gotten into the K-pop fandom, I wouldn't have returned to writing, which had, for so many years, been my hobby and happiness. I wouldn't have met Pim, or Kat, or Claire, or any of the other friends I have made online through K-pop and writing, and they have changed my life too.
I'm rambling, and sorta deviating from the topic, but the point is that all these differences in my life have all stemmed from the fact that I started listening to Korean music, and that's all thanks to Kim Jongwoon; all thanks to Yesung in Bonamana with his damn sexy black hair and amazing singing that made me fall head over heels into a totally different world that was so different from the one I knew, and sometimes makes no sense at all, but I have no regrets and if I had a choice, I would do it all again. I would fall in love with Jongwoon and Ryeowook and Henry and every single K-pop idol all over again; go through the happy times and the sad times and the frustrating times all over again.
To hear that he's enlisting breaks my heart, because even though he's not my bias anymore, I will dearly miss him. I cried when Heechul enlisted and I cried when Teukie enlisted and I will definitely cry when Jongwoon, my first celebrity crush/idol/bias, enlists.
But I will smile and wish you well, because this is only temporary, and there are too many people in the world in love with your voice to ever forget you.
From your weird, crazy dancing, to your mesmerising singing, to the unconditional love you give to your family and your members, I have always admired you and loved you (even though sometimes you drive me crazy, but that's the fun in it, isn't it?).
김종운~ 화이팅！사랑해 ♥
(Kim Jongwoon~ hwaiting! saranghae ♥)
Thank you for changing my life, for the better.