How can it be? I am on the verge of completing step one of my two step five year plan and yet just two days to finish, i feel like I am having a mental breakdown. I feel like crying uncontrollably. What is this feeling ( Read more... )

I am bored, I guess that is why I will attempt to proceed with telling my tale. hmmm.. I think I just cycle in a circle with my ups and downs staring me in the face but I am too blind to see them ( Read more... )

So I had this dream last night ( Read more... )

I am tired and I can not sleep. Today is the first day for the Spring Semester and I will only have had two hours of sleep. Why can I not sleep. I think something is troubling me but I can not phantom what it is ( Read more... )

Oh How the time flies when you are despondent and ignoring the world. I have to admit...I am depressed all I do these days all I have done for the last three months is sit here at my dual monitors and watch anime and play runescape. I have let my art groups go to crap, stop hanging out with my friends, do the bare bones of responsibility toward my ( Read more... )

So, I woke up feeling like a train ran over me. If I didn't know better I would say that I drank way too much last night. But I know this isn't an hang over. I always feel this way the morning after I do something or say something stupid. I had dinner with Aaron last night and during our conversation just out of the blue I said " When are you going ( Read more... )

Why does one bother to battle the struggles faced in life. I am feeling all out of sorts again. It's funny I want to write my thoughts down but the minute I start... i can't go on. I have been thinking of giving up this online journal and going back to my paper ones. Of course the issue in that is they are perishable.. but so is my life so it ( Read more... )

I dreamed of Lurch last night. It was a sad dream upon waking. It was a dream where when you awake from it you go right back to sleep to it. Lurch was alive. He and Trisha showed up on my door step laughing, telling me he never died that he just got involved in something and had to go away for a while but now he was back. At first I was just ( Read more... )

So Spanish kicking my butt. I can not seem to concentrate on it. I am frustrated and angry over it. I haven't got time for this shit. I miss Aaron and I just want to run and hide from the world. I am always tired. I am tired of being tired....back to Spanish... Blah. I made the mistake of watching my two favorite movies of all time. Moulin Rouge ( Read more... )

Alrighty then...got two and half papers down and have goof off way too much all the while telling myself I need to be working. I suck at this responsible stuff. So tomorrow at work I work on my papers ...yeah.. that will be a fun shuffle. I can do a paper every two hours so if I dont work I can get all four papers done....lol I will let you know ( Read more... )