January 30, 2008
I don't like to plan things because what are the odds, I will stick to them, or what if something happens and I get let down, or even let someone else down. I dont want to be responsible for it.
I really love music, at least this Indie station. Makes me feel one with myself, and peaceful. I like peaceful something about it and its just better than happy, its just everything.
I think I might smell today, I dont know just felt like I smelt funny just now, maybe cause I am wearing work out clothes....hahaha just maybe.
Wow today has gone by so slow....Everything seems almost like the clocks keep forgetting to tick. I dont know its just so odd, and freaking me out.
It really worries me that I dont know Shane. Sometimes he says things and I cant help but think he is really sweet, and has a soft, kind side. But then part of me goes back to my mom, thinking maybe he is one of those types of guys that know just what to say to get in girls pants. I like to think I am an optimist, so I dont want to believe that. But today what did he say:
He was talking about this hooka bar
and I said I never been.
"Really? They dont id its a bad ass place to go we can sunday before you go or something!"
I replied by just saying "Ya sure!"
"Awesome i really cant wait"
"Ya sounds great"
"I cant stop smiling like really"
"Really? Me too"
"Wow that makes so happy when you say"
"Awesome im glad"
"No really it means something to me when you say that so amy really thank you"
"O alright. Well welcome?"
"lol your so sweet! :)"
"Your alright too"
"Thanks"
Just things like that I want to scream at him WHO ARE YOU!?!?!
Wow I hate how thin the walls in the dorms are! I can hear Justina's voice all happy going up and laughing on the phone with her boyfriend. This is when I just get upset, not happy for her or anything, its just so fucking annoying! I really hate it when Im studying or reading and trying to pay attention to something, thats when it really straight up pisses me off!
Well think I am going to finish note taking in Government and then read Chapter 2 for Animal Science....Geez I am a nerd!
Peace and Love
I really love music, at least this Indie station. Makes me feel one with myself, and peaceful. I like peaceful something about it and its just better than happy, its just everything.
I think I might smell today, I dont know just felt like I smelt funny just now, maybe cause I am wearing work out clothes....hahaha just maybe.
Wow today has gone by so slow....Everything seems almost like the clocks keep forgetting to tick. I dont know its just so odd, and freaking me out.
It really worries me that I dont know Shane. Sometimes he says things and I cant help but think he is really sweet, and has a soft, kind side. But then part of me goes back to my mom, thinking maybe he is one of those types of guys that know just what to say to get in girls pants. I like to think I am an optimist, so I dont want to believe that. But today what did he say:
He was talking about this hooka bar
and I said I never been.
"Really? They dont id its a bad ass place to go we can sunday before you go or something!"
I replied by just saying "Ya sure!"
"Awesome i really cant wait"
"Ya sounds great"
"I cant stop smiling like really"
"Really? Me too"
"Wow that makes so happy when you say"
"Awesome im glad"
"No really it means something to me when you say that so amy really thank you"
"O alright. Well welcome?"
"lol your so sweet! :)"
"Your alright too"
"Thanks"
Just things like that I want to scream at him WHO ARE YOU!?!?!
Wow I hate how thin the walls in the dorms are! I can hear Justina's voice all happy going up and laughing on the phone with her boyfriend. This is when I just get upset, not happy for her or anything, its just so fucking annoying! I really hate it when Im studying or reading and trying to pay attention to something, thats when it really straight up pisses me off!
Well think I am going to finish note taking in Government and then read Chapter 2 for Animal Science....Geez I am a nerd!
Peace and Love