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As I grow older, and start to truly figure out myself, well...I won't disillusion myself, as I have been doing for QUITE some time now, and probably a reason I began doing this journal in the first place, is to try and figure out my place in the world. Now many would say, well everyone does that etc. etc, but still I get the feeling that for me, and I'd imagine everyone asd well, we'd like to think, or do think, that it's different than everyone else. I think I'm losing track of my main statement here though. I think I really need to discover, or rather solidify the fact that in this life I'm living, I have the tendencies to be great, or be special, but the truth keeps pushing into me that I can't or won't shy of anything less than being born into it or having some kind of automatic special talent. Example, my brother Josh.
I think what I'm discovering about myself is, that I need to live life out for me. Now that may sound a bit egotistical and also sound like I shall do nothing but only care about myself, but what I mean is, live it in the sense of trying not to be afraid anymore...or rather, fully living, and learning, etc., instead of living for others, in the sense of caring what others think and other self depressing things.
Change is going to be rough, but I think I need to truly try and find myself...if I want to be happy.
I think what I'm discovering about myself is, that I need to live life out for me. Now that may sound a bit egotistical and also sound like I shall do nothing but only care about myself, but what I mean is, live it in the sense of trying not to be afraid anymore...or rather, fully living, and learning, etc., instead of living for others, in the sense of caring what others think and other self depressing things.
Change is going to be rough, but I think I need to truly try and find myself...if I want to be happy.