Change Of Purpose on LJ
*pokes with a stick*
This thing still alive?!? IT LIVES. Hey all, what's up? Miguel here, dropping to see how everyone is doing. I have been reading entries for the past week, lord knows what I haven't even responded. I'm about to head over to a bunch of your journals once I am finished updating my poor half past dead journal. If you are wondering, I do miss LJ like mad. I can't even tell you how many times I would sit on the computer just youtubing randomness (LEAVE BRITTNEY ALONE :p ) or on Wikipedia, and I could have updated. I was actually hoping to return with like amazing news or something really dramatic. But then, after a month, it hit me, and kinda hard. Live Journal isn't ALWAYS about updating about something super amazing. I feel like kicking myself in the butt for wasting SO much time. The irony is that I feared people wouldn't be into my journal if I kept saying the same things over and over, but that was never the case. So I suppose the old saying "if it ain't broken, don't fix it" applies nicely here.
Nevertheless, I do have some new news. Heh, "new news." lol. I am in the delicate process of trying to form a relationship. She added me on Facebook, so I will be sure to update about how this all unfolds. Its a girl in my math class that I never use to pay any attention to, but ever since I noticed that I make her laugh in class (most of the time is by accident, I SWEAR) I started to feel like the protagonist of a love film. Don't ask why, I simply did. Granted, she isn't drop dead hot, but she is pretty cute, and I kind of feel like she on my level kind of thing. Oh God I hope that came out right. You know, like, I know I look good, but I feel as though some girls are simply too hot for me, and I feel unworthy of even attempting. So the girl I am interested in, I feel like we on the same page, kinda thing. WISH ME LUCK!!
As I mentioned before, I have realized some things I wish I had seen so much sooner. Let's take my Super Smash friends for example. Just the other day I was playing 1 v 1s with my mate Anthony, and it was just us two. I figured it was time we got to know each other outside of smash. But every attempt I made to get to know him more, it would get brushed aside like a house fly in Clay’s hit song "Invisible." I figured it wasn't the end of the world if he didn't want to tell me his life story. But...damn I wasn't asking him questions like "did your father do anything to you?" To top that, I come to realize how much they don't seem to wonder things about me. Sure we all have a good time talking trash, having other conversations, but they never take the time to ask me "how my day was, how I feeling" stuff like that, and I do it ALL the time! It kind of shocked me how long it took me to notice. I guess I got caught up in the laughs and in the game, that I thought I was happy. I guess I don't know what that is. I'd give up all my skill to know these guys, but I feel as though we are still strangers, despite all the laughs we share. So maybe I was in a rush in calling them "friends" because I obviously seemed to forget what it truly meant.
So I admit it, I am back because I feel empty and I needed somewhere to express myself. Boy did I beat around the bush. I have been feeling this way for some time now, so I should have come sooner. Man I feel kinda rotten, returning here like a dog with his tail between his legs. I just gota do better with these updates, now that I remember what is most important about Live Journal.
Umm what else? Guess I can tell ya what I have been up to. Still working hard at the Aquarium. I'm finally going to apply for my diving license. So next year I'll be able to dive into the Aquarium tanks and give dive talks, so that should be some experience. My classes at the college are going well. Passing all of them, at the cost of a huge chunk of my social life. Meh, it'll recover.
Well, that is all for now. Feels good to get that out. Question is, when will my next one be? I'll surprise you guys....
This thing still alive?!? IT LIVES. Hey all, what's up? Miguel here, dropping to see how everyone is doing. I have been reading entries for the past week, lord knows what I haven't even responded. I'm about to head over to a bunch of your journals once I am finished updating my poor half past dead journal. If you are wondering, I do miss LJ like mad. I can't even tell you how many times I would sit on the computer just youtubing randomness (LEAVE BRITTNEY ALONE :p ) or on Wikipedia, and I could have updated. I was actually hoping to return with like amazing news or something really dramatic. But then, after a month, it hit me, and kinda hard. Live Journal isn't ALWAYS about updating about something super amazing. I feel like kicking myself in the butt for wasting SO much time. The irony is that I feared people wouldn't be into my journal if I kept saying the same things over and over, but that was never the case. So I suppose the old saying "if it ain't broken, don't fix it" applies nicely here.
Nevertheless, I do have some new news. Heh, "new news." lol. I am in the delicate process of trying to form a relationship. She added me on Facebook, so I will be sure to update about how this all unfolds. Its a girl in my math class that I never use to pay any attention to, but ever since I noticed that I make her laugh in class (most of the time is by accident, I SWEAR) I started to feel like the protagonist of a love film. Don't ask why, I simply did. Granted, she isn't drop dead hot, but she is pretty cute, and I kind of feel like she on my level kind of thing. Oh God I hope that came out right. You know, like, I know I look good, but I feel as though some girls are simply too hot for me, and I feel unworthy of even attempting. So the girl I am interested in, I feel like we on the same page, kinda thing. WISH ME LUCK!!
As I mentioned before, I have realized some things I wish I had seen so much sooner. Let's take my Super Smash friends for example. Just the other day I was playing 1 v 1s with my mate Anthony, and it was just us two. I figured it was time we got to know each other outside of smash. But every attempt I made to get to know him more, it would get brushed aside like a house fly in Clay’s hit song "Invisible." I figured it wasn't the end of the world if he didn't want to tell me his life story. But...damn I wasn't asking him questions like "did your father do anything to you?" To top that, I come to realize how much they don't seem to wonder things about me. Sure we all have a good time talking trash, having other conversations, but they never take the time to ask me "how my day was, how I feeling" stuff like that, and I do it ALL the time! It kind of shocked me how long it took me to notice. I guess I got caught up in the laughs and in the game, that I thought I was happy. I guess I don't know what that is. I'd give up all my skill to know these guys, but I feel as though we are still strangers, despite all the laughs we share. So maybe I was in a rush in calling them "friends" because I obviously seemed to forget what it truly meant.
So I admit it, I am back because I feel empty and I needed somewhere to express myself. Boy did I beat around the bush. I have been feeling this way for some time now, so I should have come sooner. Man I feel kinda rotten, returning here like a dog with his tail between his legs. I just gota do better with these updates, now that I remember what is most important about Live Journal.
Umm what else? Guess I can tell ya what I have been up to. Still working hard at the Aquarium. I'm finally going to apply for my diving license. So next year I'll be able to dive into the Aquarium tanks and give dive talks, so that should be some experience. My classes at the college are going well. Passing all of them, at the cost of a huge chunk of my social life. Meh, it'll recover.
Well, that is all for now. Feels good to get that out. Question is, when will my next one be? I'll surprise you guys....