2 years...

[nemoria]

2 years and 17 days since my best friend left this world... 2 years and 17 days since i have had a night where i didnt dream about him... i miss him... i miss him more than anyone could ever imagine... i feel like a piece of me has died, and i will never get it back. which is pretty much true. i feel like i should make a post in his memory, something that i can look to in darker moments that reminds me of everything good about him... but i cant... i cant face the fact that i will never again see his face, or his smile... i will never get another hug, or phone call, or random text message... that i will never hear his cartman impersonation again... i just cant. every time i think about the fact that he is gone it feels like someone is ripping out my heart all over again... *sigh*

i just cant bring myself to say goodbye

march has become an incredibly hard month for me