its amazing how words become even more relevant months after they were written
life, love, and lamentations of sorrow
i am
captivated
rediscovering myself
through the eyes of someone else
someone the same
yet entirely different
never have i been so understood
and yet not known at all
my dreams, my thoughts, my desires
me
all illuminated and magnified
to be studied
and to be shared
all i have
not much at all
is mine to give away
and while for years i have kept
all those things hidden deep inside
i would give them all freely now
which is the paradox of this reality for me
i dont allow myself to love
not in this way
too much at stake
and yet here in this moment
i no longer care
for once its worth the chance
its all or nothing
a gamble with myself
strange
me saying things like that
and actually meaning them
regardless of who, or what
i never shared it all
and here
i dont have to
because its already known
its already being thought
its jasmin
as interpreted through the life of someone else
and its all so surreal
and all so wonderful
and all so frightening
and yet i dont care
i dont know what will happen
and it doesnt matter
because as it was said before
every bit of what i stand to gain
and all that i stand to lose
is worth it
and so i jump off the edge of the world ive always known
and either he will catch me
or i will learn to fly
and both are worth everything i leave behind
(there is a LONG story behind all this, which i will post later on, but not right now.... and if i dont post it, those who need to know, will know, after i come home to visit)
i am
captivated
rediscovering myself
through the eyes of someone else
someone the same
yet entirely different
never have i been so understood
and yet not known at all
my dreams, my thoughts, my desires
me
all illuminated and magnified
to be studied
and to be shared
all i have
not much at all
is mine to give away
and while for years i have kept
all those things hidden deep inside
i would give them all freely now
which is the paradox of this reality for me
i dont allow myself to love
not in this way
too much at stake
and yet here in this moment
i no longer care
for once its worth the chance
its all or nothing
a gamble with myself
strange
me saying things like that
and actually meaning them
regardless of who, or what
i never shared it all
and here
i dont have to
because its already known
its already being thought
its jasmin
as interpreted through the life of someone else
and its all so surreal
and all so wonderful
and all so frightening
and yet i dont care
i dont know what will happen
and it doesnt matter
because as it was said before
every bit of what i stand to gain
and all that i stand to lose
is worth it
and so i jump off the edge of the world ive always known
and either he will catch me
or i will learn to fly
and both are worth everything i leave behind
(there is a LONG story behind all this, which i will post later on, but not right now.... and if i dont post it, those who need to know, will know, after i come home to visit)