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[nemoria]

so yeah

here i am
a new week in the OC
and everything is still the same and yet all so different

i went through a big depression for about the last 2 weeks
for some reason adjusting to things was a lot harder than i thought it would be
and then it was just one thing after another and it seemed it would never end
but eventually it did... it always does
and i realised the sun was still shining and life was still going on
and that it had never really stopped in the first place
and i snapped out of it

so here i am again
walking down the path of life
doing what i know i should be doing
and i started going to my classes again
(yes i did miss a few over the last 2 weeks)
but all my instructors are thre for me
and so all is well
in fact i turned in a project today that was great
it was one of the best pieces i have done in a while :)
i was so proud of myself
it was the first time i had ever worked with those materials before
and it DIDNT suck !!!
*does the happy dance*

shit..
im fucking bored...
im gonna go work on my art some more

its great being able to do what i love again
its even better to be able to love again
all these feelings that i denied myself for so many years
they kinda ambushed me, but now that i know how to deal with them a little better
its actually really great to be a part of life again
and its even better to be able to really feel emotions for the peopel i love
and the crazy thing is
i have realized that i pretty much love everyone
they all have something different and beautiful to offer
we just have to be willing to look

*sighs*

love to all
time for art

!