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you know whats fun? (rhetorical question): mental disorders!
I have been diagnosed (unofficially) with general anxiety disorder.
you know what i hate? (rhetorical question): doctors who push pills when you tell them its something you want to avoid.
though, on the other hand, having a possible chemical imbalance in my brain could make me a genius, thats how it goes... right? or just a neurotic nut. i will go with the first one.
counselling! maybe it isnt the best that i am so open, maybe it is. i dont really care. it doesnt bother me.
but i do hate how doctors shoot down any possibility of even looking into herbal medicine and treatment. JUST TAKE THE DRUGS, it might screw you up, but who cares, drug companies will earn bigger profits! dont feel uneasy about taking an addictive substance without question, its like heroin, but legal! so it must be good for you! for everyone!
"there has been no extensive research on herbal treatments, they have side effects too" she said. i trust something people have been using for thousands of years that comes from the earth over anything thats on the market today. wheres the extensive research on those things? last i checked they didnt even exist 50 years ago, so wheres the assessment of long term effects? what about the studies on the ssri's you recommended that show suicidal tendencies?
FUCK YOU MEDICAL DOCTORS. that being said, now I am going to book an appointment with a counsellor.
its weird, because im not depressed, nor unhappy, and im doing very well in school. maybe its just my bodies way to get the stress out of me. who knows.
i think its our culture. televisions, billboards, big flashy signs. malls make me nervous. really nervous.
anyways, thats my super fun rant. after 6 or so months, i am glad to be dealing with it, though.
in other news on my life:
my roommates suck (who would have thought living with 5 girls wouldnt be fun). theyre trying to make me pay for cable, yeah right, i hate cable and didnt want it in the first place.
now that i have a computer, I think im going to start blasting be bad and other noise music i find, just to annoy them. after all, if its not the oc theme song, its not cool.
franc moves up in..11 days! whee! and im going to look at an apartment tonight. wish me luck.
:)
I have been diagnosed (unofficially) with general anxiety disorder.
you know what i hate? (rhetorical question): doctors who push pills when you tell them its something you want to avoid.
though, on the other hand, having a possible chemical imbalance in my brain could make me a genius, thats how it goes... right? or just a neurotic nut. i will go with the first one.
counselling! maybe it isnt the best that i am so open, maybe it is. i dont really care. it doesnt bother me.
but i do hate how doctors shoot down any possibility of even looking into herbal medicine and treatment. JUST TAKE THE DRUGS, it might screw you up, but who cares, drug companies will earn bigger profits! dont feel uneasy about taking an addictive substance without question, its like heroin, but legal! so it must be good for you! for everyone!
"there has been no extensive research on herbal treatments, they have side effects too" she said. i trust something people have been using for thousands of years that comes from the earth over anything thats on the market today. wheres the extensive research on those things? last i checked they didnt even exist 50 years ago, so wheres the assessment of long term effects? what about the studies on the ssri's you recommended that show suicidal tendencies?
FUCK YOU MEDICAL DOCTORS. that being said, now I am going to book an appointment with a counsellor.
its weird, because im not depressed, nor unhappy, and im doing very well in school. maybe its just my bodies way to get the stress out of me. who knows.
i think its our culture. televisions, billboards, big flashy signs. malls make me nervous. really nervous.
anyways, thats my super fun rant. after 6 or so months, i am glad to be dealing with it, though.
in other news on my life:
my roommates suck (who would have thought living with 5 girls wouldnt be fun). theyre trying to make me pay for cable, yeah right, i hate cable and didnt want it in the first place.
now that i have a computer, I think im going to start blasting be bad and other noise music i find, just to annoy them. after all, if its not the oc theme song, its not cool.
franc moves up in..11 days! whee! and im going to look at an apartment tonight. wish me luck.
:)