once again for those who aren't on FB
I had to cancel my attendance at FilkContinental 2011.
I have to be realistic about this. I'm really ill. That means I'm not only at home, feeling ok, just being not well enough to go out and do things. It means I'm actually ill at home, feeling bad even if I don't do anything.
Most of the time I'm sleeping. Not only lying in bed reading but sleeping.
In between, I'm watching videos, knitting. Until this has me exhausted again. All the time my ear is hurting. Compared to the searing agony it was the first 4 days of the Otitis it's of course improved now and merely "very uncomfortable". Compared to being healthy it fucking hurts 24/7.
Additionally I've gotten the sniffles today and some greatly entertaining vertigo. Life is swell.
I'm doing against it what's possible. I have antibiotic pills and ear drops, nose drops and anti-inflammatory pills against the Otitis. I saw the ENT every day last week.
The Mononucleosis (Pfeiffer'sches Drüsenfieber) is a viral infection and takes as long as it takes. Yesterday my spleen was still larger than my GP's measuring scale, i.e. probably still the 19 cm it had when it was looked at at the hospital (usually spleens are 11 cm). As long as it's enlarged I'll be feeling tired, be prone to secondary infections as the current Otitis and if I happen to get into an accident and get bumped into my side I'll get a ruptured spleen and bleed to death internally within seconds. Or something.
So between my utter exhaustion and hurting ear, there is no way I could even make it to the Freusburg, nor survive a whole weekend of convention. I desperately hope I'll feel BETTER in two weeks but it would be delusional to think I'll be FIT enough by then.
Enjoy the convention, people, but please don't try to convince me to come, too. It's not that I wouldn't want to be healthy and there with you. It's just not possible.