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I always love it when people ignore me. I respect their decisions so therefore, they should keep doing it.
Went to CIS today, filled out all the paperwork which took like an hour and a half, and the chick had to go to a meeting so they shall call to reschedule the actual interview.
So I was reading today about dreams yet again, and the picture is starting to become fairly clear. I went to dozens of sites to help decipher my dreams to make a lil sense of it all. The note in lasts nights dream is supposedly from the conscious world. Something happened/is going to happen in my life, thus the note.
Fog seems to indicate confusion and uncertainty. Dead trees represent my hopes and desires have been dashed. Snow means I'm feeling indifferent, alone, and neglected, yet watching it snow means a clean start. Strong winds represent turmoil. A dream at night symbolizes rebirth, reflection, new beginnings, and death. The darkness that came means evil, death, the unconscious, ignorance; but to feel safe in the darkness suggests you like not knowing certain things
And I felt safe in the dark with Jill there. Even though the symbols kept saying 'death', it doesn't necessarily mean someone or myself is going to die. It usually symbolizes a relationship or idea that is going to end. So I wonder what I'm not knowing. Ignorance is bliss eh? If only...
To feel cold means you feel isolated or emotionally restrained, cold could reflect my feelings about a lover or certain person, or just brought on by the environment. It did snow shortly after the temperature dropped.
The leaves represent a passage in time, and could just be a metaphor for 'leave' you alone....and the words written on the note even said to 'leave me alone'
So yea....wtf...
To see brown or withered leaves in your dream, signifies fallen hopes, despair, sadness and loss.
To cry in your dream is a 'letting go' of your emotions, as your defense-mechanisms don't exist in your dreams. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations.
To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. So Jill was crying after seeing me cry...because I need to see someone else cry so I don't feel so alone with this pain? Hmm I don't know, it felt like she was genuinely crying FOR me, not because I had her cry. Like I said before these dreams are as if I was actually there, and had no manipulation on anything, at any part. She does what she does because she wants to.
Then when I touched the willow and got the broken heart feeling...
To dream that you are going through a heartbreak, signifies transitions and changes. Alternatively, the dream suggest that you are lacking love or support in some endeavor in your life. There is an imbalance. A more literal interpretation of this dream means that you are going through some sort of emotional turmoil in your waking life. You do not know how to deal with those feelings.
No, I don't know how to deal with it. I'm a loving guy, and have nobody to love. I NEED to love someone in order to actually feel normal, without it i'm so lost. Hey look, I'm suppressing tears right now.
Save it for my dreams.
Now for the coat I've been wearing lately...
To see or wear a coat in your dream, symbolizes your protectiveness and defensive persona. You may be isolating yourself. Consider also the color, appearance, and type of coat for additional significance
Type? Trench coat, already stated that in a previous dream. To dream that you are wearing a raincoat(trench coats are raincoats), suggests that you are shielding yourself from your emotions. You are not able to face the nastiness.
Color? Usually black one, so here Black symbolizes the unknown, the unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, rejection, hate or malice.�The color invites you to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. It also signifies a lack of love and lack of support.�More positively, black represents potential and possibilities. It is like a clean or blank slate.
The coat was worn out kinda, faded a lil bit. Says that means I'm feeling down on myself.
So this is pointing to my emotions and lack of love. How am I not surprised. And shielding myself from my emotions, heh, I don't blame myself.
So if I take two and two, and put them together....I took my coat off and covered Jill in it, and I wrapped her up in my arms along with it..soo...I'm letting her get through my proverbial wall. She did seem to know what I was feeling, so that must be why I felt comfortable enough to do so. Could also just be I'm a sweet guy and didnt want her to get soaking wet or freeze to death. I'm chivalrous, so I'll get soaked or freeze, not her.
So for the point where Jill and I were standing there holding each other, and it was dark, and foggy and windy with leaves blowing around, and then for it to get even darker and more fog...but the wind to stop...
The wind stopping..the turmoil of my emotions ended. Why? Was it because I felt safe there with Jill and at that moment she was all I cared about?
Very interesting stuff nonetheless, after going over what happened in the dream and looking it up piece by piece I'm starting to see the bigger picture. And yet I'm not surprised by it...
Anyways, last nights dream.
Seems to have picked up where my previous nights dream left off. Not in the same spot, the same setting/environment.
This time I was in a cave in the mountain side, with Jill there. It was still snowing out, very cold. We had set up a campfire inside this little cut away, trying to seek refuge from the elements that awaited outside. We sat there curled up, cuddling next to the fire. Inside the cave was remarkably warm compared to how it was outside. I took off my coat(yet again) to provide a makeshift pillow. She didnt need one, as she was laying with her head on my chest.
Like I always do, I ran my fingers through her hair to try and calm whatever feelings of hers she had inside, letting her know I'm here and I care. She softly purred and slid her hand up my shirt to gently brush her fingertips across my stomach. A moment I had once enjoyed in the conscious world, which is probably why it's in this dream. You can 'always dream about it' right?
Laying on my chest, she commented on the sound of my heartbeat. That it sounded so soothing like nothing she's ever heard before. And how a heart that is broken can still beat with such a passion.
While we were secluded in the cave, I felt such a love for her. I've always cared about her ever since she first came into my dream(and even then I knew I had feelings for her, yet not knowing who this mysterious person was), but that night, in that cave, I loved her. She's been there for me through all of this. The mysterious park, the rain, the destroyed park, the dead forest and fog and darkness and wind and snow. Not once did she ever change her ways. She still felt the same about me. Even after all these strange and dark changes happening, she still waited for me. As we sat in the darkness, her love shined through it all, hence the daisy. That is why I felt love for her.
She did tell me she'd be there, and sure she was. This love I had for her didn't feel like a new found love, it felt like a love thats grown over like....forever and it grew each passing day. Every waking day it felt like she loved me more, and all of a sudden I felt that love, as if the fire burned away the ice that was holding it back.
So we lay there on the ground, holding each other close. She wrapped her leg around mine(I'm guessing to feel closer to me) and she softly kissed the lower part of my neck, and wrapped an arm under my head, bringing me in even closer. The fires flame had started to slowly fade, leaving the pieces of wood slowly burning by what remained of the embers. As the darkness started to slowly seep back into the cave, I felt her tears dripping onto my chest. She moved up to my ear and whispered the words 'thank you'
I kissed her forehead and said "I love you too", and we lay in the darkened cave and once again with her in my arms, we fall asleep.
All I have to say is I think this is my subconscious letting me get what I can't have 'in real life'
But I'm going to say it again, these dreams feel too real, 'surreal' really...I can feel her in my arms right now. Do I have this much power over love to have it physically manifest itself into a dream? And partway into the waking world?
Regardless, if I can't have it in my life right now, these dreams more than do the job.
Went to CIS today, filled out all the paperwork which took like an hour and a half, and the chick had to go to a meeting so they shall call to reschedule the actual interview.
So I was reading today about dreams yet again, and the picture is starting to become fairly clear. I went to dozens of sites to help decipher my dreams to make a lil sense of it all. The note in lasts nights dream is supposedly from the conscious world. Something happened/is going to happen in my life, thus the note.
Fog seems to indicate confusion and uncertainty. Dead trees represent my hopes and desires have been dashed. Snow means I'm feeling indifferent, alone, and neglected, yet watching it snow means a clean start. Strong winds represent turmoil. A dream at night symbolizes rebirth, reflection, new beginnings, and death. The darkness that came means evil, death, the unconscious, ignorance; but to feel safe in the darkness suggests you like not knowing certain things
And I felt safe in the dark with Jill there. Even though the symbols kept saying 'death', it doesn't necessarily mean someone or myself is going to die. It usually symbolizes a relationship or idea that is going to end. So I wonder what I'm not knowing. Ignorance is bliss eh? If only...
To feel cold means you feel isolated or emotionally restrained, cold could reflect my feelings about a lover or certain person, or just brought on by the environment. It did snow shortly after the temperature dropped.
The leaves represent a passage in time, and could just be a metaphor for 'leave' you alone....and the words written on the note even said to 'leave me alone'
So yea....wtf...
To see brown or withered leaves in your dream, signifies fallen hopes, despair, sadness and loss.
To cry in your dream is a 'letting go' of your emotions, as your defense-mechanisms don't exist in your dreams. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations.
To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. So Jill was crying after seeing me cry...because I need to see someone else cry so I don't feel so alone with this pain? Hmm I don't know, it felt like she was genuinely crying FOR me, not because I had her cry. Like I said before these dreams are as if I was actually there, and had no manipulation on anything, at any part. She does what she does because she wants to.
Then when I touched the willow and got the broken heart feeling...
To dream that you are going through a heartbreak, signifies transitions and changes. Alternatively, the dream suggest that you are lacking love or support in some endeavor in your life. There is an imbalance. A more literal interpretation of this dream means that you are going through some sort of emotional turmoil in your waking life. You do not know how to deal with those feelings.
No, I don't know how to deal with it. I'm a loving guy, and have nobody to love. I NEED to love someone in order to actually feel normal, without it i'm so lost. Hey look, I'm suppressing tears right now.
Save it for my dreams.
Now for the coat I've been wearing lately...
To see or wear a coat in your dream, symbolizes your protectiveness and defensive persona. You may be isolating yourself. Consider also the color, appearance, and type of coat for additional significance
Type? Trench coat, already stated that in a previous dream. To dream that you are wearing a raincoat(trench coats are raincoats), suggests that you are shielding yourself from your emotions. You are not able to face the nastiness.
Color? Usually black one, so here Black symbolizes the unknown, the unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, rejection, hate or malice.�The color invites you to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. It also signifies a lack of love and lack of support.�More positively, black represents potential and possibilities. It is like a clean or blank slate.
The coat was worn out kinda, faded a lil bit. Says that means I'm feeling down on myself.
So this is pointing to my emotions and lack of love. How am I not surprised. And shielding myself from my emotions, heh, I don't blame myself.
So if I take two and two, and put them together....I took my coat off and covered Jill in it, and I wrapped her up in my arms along with it..soo...I'm letting her get through my proverbial wall. She did seem to know what I was feeling, so that must be why I felt comfortable enough to do so. Could also just be I'm a sweet guy and didnt want her to get soaking wet or freeze to death. I'm chivalrous, so I'll get soaked or freeze, not her.
So for the point where Jill and I were standing there holding each other, and it was dark, and foggy and windy with leaves blowing around, and then for it to get even darker and more fog...but the wind to stop...
The wind stopping..the turmoil of my emotions ended. Why? Was it because I felt safe there with Jill and at that moment she was all I cared about?
Very interesting stuff nonetheless, after going over what happened in the dream and looking it up piece by piece I'm starting to see the bigger picture. And yet I'm not surprised by it...
Anyways, last nights dream.
Seems to have picked up where my previous nights dream left off. Not in the same spot, the same setting/environment.
This time I was in a cave in the mountain side, with Jill there. It was still snowing out, very cold. We had set up a campfire inside this little cut away, trying to seek refuge from the elements that awaited outside. We sat there curled up, cuddling next to the fire. Inside the cave was remarkably warm compared to how it was outside. I took off my coat(yet again) to provide a makeshift pillow. She didnt need one, as she was laying with her head on my chest.
Like I always do, I ran my fingers through her hair to try and calm whatever feelings of hers she had inside, letting her know I'm here and I care. She softly purred and slid her hand up my shirt to gently brush her fingertips across my stomach. A moment I had once enjoyed in the conscious world, which is probably why it's in this dream. You can 'always dream about it' right?
Laying on my chest, she commented on the sound of my heartbeat. That it sounded so soothing like nothing she's ever heard before. And how a heart that is broken can still beat with such a passion.
While we were secluded in the cave, I felt such a love for her. I've always cared about her ever since she first came into my dream(and even then I knew I had feelings for her, yet not knowing who this mysterious person was), but that night, in that cave, I loved her. She's been there for me through all of this. The mysterious park, the rain, the destroyed park, the dead forest and fog and darkness and wind and snow. Not once did she ever change her ways. She still felt the same about me. Even after all these strange and dark changes happening, she still waited for me. As we sat in the darkness, her love shined through it all, hence the daisy. That is why I felt love for her.
She did tell me she'd be there, and sure she was. This love I had for her didn't feel like a new found love, it felt like a love thats grown over like....forever and it grew each passing day. Every waking day it felt like she loved me more, and all of a sudden I felt that love, as if the fire burned away the ice that was holding it back.
So we lay there on the ground, holding each other close. She wrapped her leg around mine(I'm guessing to feel closer to me) and she softly kissed the lower part of my neck, and wrapped an arm under my head, bringing me in even closer. The fires flame had started to slowly fade, leaving the pieces of wood slowly burning by what remained of the embers. As the darkness started to slowly seep back into the cave, I felt her tears dripping onto my chest. She moved up to my ear and whispered the words 'thank you'
I kissed her forehead and said "I love you too", and we lay in the darkened cave and once again with her in my arms, we fall asleep.
All I have to say is I think this is my subconscious letting me get what I can't have 'in real life'
But I'm going to say it again, these dreams feel too real, 'surreal' really...I can feel her in my arms right now. Do I have this much power over love to have it physically manifest itself into a dream? And partway into the waking world?
Regardless, if I can't have it in my life right now, these dreams more than do the job.