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So last night I was listening to music and trying to figure out what the whole 'farmville craze' is all about on facebook, so I logged onto it and messed with it for 1 sec and I get a message that read 'come over'
First thought was like 'woah...okay...why...that was random' It really struck me by surprise. Totally not expecting that, let alone a message from her..so I was thinking it wouldn't even be possible so I ask, and sure enough I could go over. Another shock. Not without some consoling words from my dad for a few minutes, but as he says "Do what you want, you're a big boy"
So I go over, nervous the whole way for multiple reasons. I'm always nervous around her though lately, or even if i talk to her on the net or phone...just nervous of the fact my dumb ass will say something based off my feelings, which are themselves pretty powerful. So I try and keep that in check, which probably makes me look stand-offish.
So I go over, and she talked and I, of course, listened. I honestly don't mind if she talks for hours on end, even though she feels as if she's just rambling on and I 'dont want to hear it'
I do want to hear it. I do want to hear her voice. Her voice is like the rain to me. Like a stream in the quite of the forest. Just so soothing, no matter if the rain falls heavy, or falls silent....
But this time instead of doing all the listening, she got to listen to me. Something that lets me know that I have changed...but I'm really shy around her.......
So as I lay in bed beside her, I couldn't fall asleep even if I wanted to. But I didn't want to. Well I did at the very 'end' for a few hours, but other than that I was up all night...
Touching her, getting caught in my emotions and my feelings...but mostly just looking at her. Softly caressing and holding her ever so close with my eyes..afraid to do so physically....oh how beautiful she is when she lay there...I wrote a poem in my head, as i watched you all night....
I might not be able to see without my glasses.....so my heart leads the way
Laying beside you
My heart does beat
Up all night
I cannot sleep
A gentle touch
On smooth satin skin
I honestly don't know..
Where to really begin
So there you are
Right by my side
You don't even know
How I feel inside
With eyes so bright
And hair so fair
No reason to wonder
Why I often stare
Words can't express
How my love for you grows
Years gone by
Yet my heart still shows
Yes it sounds crazy
But it's my view
God must have spent
A lot of time on you
To make you so perfect
Yet you feel so lost
Let me guide you
Out of the frost
I sense it there
So deep inside
Reaching and pulling
Still trying to hide
Let me hold you
Let me touch
The heart of yours
That I love so much
I'm here for you
I'm here to stay
Just hold my hand
I'll lead the way
Time serves purpose
Time stays true
I've always been here
Waiting for you
I know the things
That I must do
A career for one..
Just one of few
My mind is set
It's all in motion
Everything changed
When I drank the potion
To wake up one day
And realize the past
It all came to me
So very fast
Just need some time
To set things in motion
Shortly I
will cross the ocean........for you.
First thought was like 'woah...okay...why...that was random' It really struck me by surprise. Totally not expecting that, let alone a message from her..so I was thinking it wouldn't even be possible so I ask, and sure enough I could go over. Another shock. Not without some consoling words from my dad for a few minutes, but as he says "Do what you want, you're a big boy"
So I go over, nervous the whole way for multiple reasons. I'm always nervous around her though lately, or even if i talk to her on the net or phone...just nervous of the fact my dumb ass will say something based off my feelings, which are themselves pretty powerful. So I try and keep that in check, which probably makes me look stand-offish.
So I go over, and she talked and I, of course, listened. I honestly don't mind if she talks for hours on end, even though she feels as if she's just rambling on and I 'dont want to hear it'
I do want to hear it. I do want to hear her voice. Her voice is like the rain to me. Like a stream in the quite of the forest. Just so soothing, no matter if the rain falls heavy, or falls silent....
But this time instead of doing all the listening, she got to listen to me. Something that lets me know that I have changed...but I'm really shy around her.......
So as I lay in bed beside her, I couldn't fall asleep even if I wanted to. But I didn't want to. Well I did at the very 'end' for a few hours, but other than that I was up all night...
Touching her, getting caught in my emotions and my feelings...but mostly just looking at her. Softly caressing and holding her ever so close with my eyes..afraid to do so physically....oh how beautiful she is when she lay there...I wrote a poem in my head, as i watched you all night....
I might not be able to see without my glasses.....so my heart leads the way
Laying beside you
My heart does beat
Up all night
I cannot sleep
A gentle touch
On smooth satin skin
I honestly don't know..
Where to really begin
So there you are
Right by my side
You don't even know
How I feel inside
With eyes so bright
And hair so fair
No reason to wonder
Why I often stare
Words can't express
How my love for you grows
Years gone by
Yet my heart still shows
Yes it sounds crazy
But it's my view
God must have spent
A lot of time on you
To make you so perfect
Yet you feel so lost
Let me guide you
Out of the frost
I sense it there
So deep inside
Reaching and pulling
Still trying to hide
Let me hold you
Let me touch
The heart of yours
That I love so much
I'm here for you
I'm here to stay
Just hold my hand
I'll lead the way
Time serves purpose
Time stays true
I've always been here
Waiting for you
I know the things
That I must do
A career for one..
Just one of few
My mind is set
It's all in motion
Everything changed
When I drank the potion
To wake up one day
And realize the past
It all came to me
So very fast
Just need some time
To set things in motion
Shortly I
will cross the ocean........for you.