Jan 26, 2012 07:46
I need advice.
My brother's birthday is in 19 days. He's turning 20. I want to get him something... anything really. I can't imagine not getting my best friend in the whole world a gift for his birthday. Normally when this happens, I draw or make something for the person, but I can't do that for Dan since he's not really into that stuff.
I have no money. At all. My bank account currently has $1.32 in it. I can't even mail anything right now.
I should open for commissions, but I am so fucking tired of people goading me into it only to have NO ONE take me up on it. I know I'm not a high-tier artist, and I know that I have a very small group of fans that is shrinking every day I post something pony related or whatever. I know I have a slow turn over because of school, because of my real life. I know that I have a very limited scope (aka, I don't draw porn). I get that. The only way I could ever get any sales is to sell myself way short, and we all know that's damaging to me and everyone in the fandom.
But I need the money. Right now. Not just for Dan, though that's certainly part of it. I need red pens, a new stapler, gas money, food money... I don't know what to do. I just don't think my self esteem could take it if I opened for commissions again and nobody stepped up to the plate. I've almost had to quit the internet twice because my self-worth gets way too tied up in how people on the internet feel about me and my art.
Any advice anyone can give? I feel like we've done this before, but it's still a problem I guess.
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