God I have to laugh at myself
I have spent to majority of my day hugging and smelling my blue adidas zip up, because yes, it smells slightly of Matt and reminds me of how fucking amazing last night was. He looked so funny when he put it on...and surprisingly good.
God I need to sort myself out. I've spent all day day dreaming and doodling and just...smiling to myself and then getting love pains.
I don't really know what to DO with myself this lunch time...I dont feel like hanging out with the usual friends, Izzie's disappeared, doing some YEP thing I think. So...I'm sorta at a loss with what to do. I'm so used to having some techie stuff to do, or a drama performance or something...and it's weird, cause I find myself WANTING to do something like that. I miss it already, and I miss hanging out with Morley, Mr Phillips, Matt, Matt, Miss Putapon and whatnot...it was SO much fun yesterday.
I worked backstage at the talent show, rather than on lights....makes me want to be a Stage Manager even more, but at the same time I kept worrying about the lights as well...
Blah...I dunno.
Anyway, I might go and raid the backstage cupboard in the black box to find some broken stuff to go in my vitrine for art. I'm writing in here cause school sucks and have blocked xanga which is a violation of free speech. Well...I'd think that if I really cared about freedom and rights and stuff, but...meh...I'm not in the mood.
Anyway, yes well...bye!
~Techie Madness xxx
Oh, and in addition, Anna's leaving today, and I feel crap cause I was always mean about her but in the last few days I've actually spoken to her, and she's SO nice and I don't want her to go. I don't want Matt to mope around...cause I can imagine how much it would suck to have my boyfriend go off to Australia and not see them for god knows how long. It'll be weird for him I guess...not having her in school everyday. I dunno...
Apparently in Assembly, when Dr Burne said she was leaving, a few people went "Yes!" And said things like "Now we can have Matt all to ourselves!" It's just like...grow the fuck up children, he's 32 and isn't interested in any of us. Ha...ha...I'm a joke.
Umm...he said taking the job here was the worst mistake of his life, and that he'd been looking for work in other places ever since but no one would have him. Made me feel bad...didn't know he hated it that much.
I dunno, anyway I am going!
God I need to sort myself out. I've spent all day day dreaming and doodling and just...smiling to myself and then getting love pains.
I don't really know what to DO with myself this lunch time...I dont feel like hanging out with the usual friends, Izzie's disappeared, doing some YEP thing I think. So...I'm sorta at a loss with what to do. I'm so used to having some techie stuff to do, or a drama performance or something...and it's weird, cause I find myself WANTING to do something like that. I miss it already, and I miss hanging out with Morley, Mr Phillips, Matt, Matt, Miss Putapon and whatnot...it was SO much fun yesterday.
I worked backstage at the talent show, rather than on lights....makes me want to be a Stage Manager even more, but at the same time I kept worrying about the lights as well...
Blah...I dunno.
Anyway, I might go and raid the backstage cupboard in the black box to find some broken stuff to go in my vitrine for art. I'm writing in here cause school sucks and have blocked xanga which is a violation of free speech. Well...I'd think that if I really cared about freedom and rights and stuff, but...meh...I'm not in the mood.
Anyway, yes well...bye!
~Techie Madness xxx
Oh, and in addition, Anna's leaving today, and I feel crap cause I was always mean about her but in the last few days I've actually spoken to her, and she's SO nice and I don't want her to go. I don't want Matt to mope around...cause I can imagine how much it would suck to have my boyfriend go off to Australia and not see them for god knows how long. It'll be weird for him I guess...not having her in school everyday. I dunno...
Apparently in Assembly, when Dr Burne said she was leaving, a few people went "Yes!" And said things like "Now we can have Matt all to ourselves!" It's just like...grow the fuck up children, he's 32 and isn't interested in any of us. Ha...ha...I'm a joke.
Umm...he said taking the job here was the worst mistake of his life, and that he'd been looking for work in other places ever since but no one would have him. Made me feel bad...didn't know he hated it that much.
I dunno, anyway I am going!