Good things jump round corners at you...
My good thing tonight? I'd been sitting in Dom's room watching Friends, Will and Grace and Sex and the City and playing ff10, answering the phone as it rang every 5 minutes. Mum came home, and about 30 mins later she called up to me, but didn't say what was wrong. I got up and was just walking out of Dom's door when Kate jumped round the corner and went "RAHH!" I screamed and jumped back and yelled at her and jumped back some more before hugging her so so tightly.
She always manages to do that...come and give me a hug when I need it. She's so lovely! She wanted to give mum and hug, and wanted to be here with us, so she came all the way down from Cambridge, spur of the moment at night without telling anyone. She's the best sister in the world!
I think I'm gonna go see dad with her tmrw, cause she's gotta leave early. If Dom's back from Mary's in time he'll come with us, cause he's not going to his football match, but mum can't come cause she's got a hair appointment she can't cancel...
I'm still so scared of going tmrw...Mum said he's got lots of things hooked up up to him and loads of tubes. I hate that...I...I dunno...I remember vaguely going to see him in Homerton Hospital when I was 5, and it was nice, with oranges on the table infront of him on his bed, and I bought him a carton of orange juice...That's my only good memory of a hospital though. I try and make a thing of not going to them. Never been in one myself...hardly visited. I just see hospital's as taking people away from me...Jean, Shelly, Anna...I dunno...I guess I'm just more scared than I thought I was, cause I know I won't know what to say or where to look or whatever...
In other good news though, Lauren rang me, and said she's coming back to school on Thursday. I dunno what that's gonna be like though...hopefully if her parents are letting her back it's because she's getting better. It was her B day yesterday...but I can't see her this weekend...so I said I'd see her next weekend. I dunno what to get her though...everything just seems so inappropriate, but at the same time I know I shouldn't treat her any differently. I'm just bad, and always have been bad, with pressies! I say money is the best way, but people see that as impersonal. Bah...
Anyway...I'm gonna go finish my game of FF10 and eat some toffee from Thorntons with Kate, and have a shower...or I might have a shower in the morning...I dunno...
But things are looking up, so hopefully tmrw will be okay.
Love you all, stay safe
~Ary x
She always manages to do that...come and give me a hug when I need it. She's so lovely! She wanted to give mum and hug, and wanted to be here with us, so she came all the way down from Cambridge, spur of the moment at night without telling anyone. She's the best sister in the world!
I think I'm gonna go see dad with her tmrw, cause she's gotta leave early. If Dom's back from Mary's in time he'll come with us, cause he's not going to his football match, but mum can't come cause she's got a hair appointment she can't cancel...
I'm still so scared of going tmrw...Mum said he's got lots of things hooked up up to him and loads of tubes. I hate that...I...I dunno...I remember vaguely going to see him in Homerton Hospital when I was 5, and it was nice, with oranges on the table infront of him on his bed, and I bought him a carton of orange juice...That's my only good memory of a hospital though. I try and make a thing of not going to them. Never been in one myself...hardly visited. I just see hospital's as taking people away from me...Jean, Shelly, Anna...I dunno...I guess I'm just more scared than I thought I was, cause I know I won't know what to say or where to look or whatever...
In other good news though, Lauren rang me, and said she's coming back to school on Thursday. I dunno what that's gonna be like though...hopefully if her parents are letting her back it's because she's getting better. It was her B day yesterday...but I can't see her this weekend...so I said I'd see her next weekend. I dunno what to get her though...everything just seems so inappropriate, but at the same time I know I shouldn't treat her any differently. I'm just bad, and always have been bad, with pressies! I say money is the best way, but people see that as impersonal. Bah...
Anyway...I'm gonna go finish my game of FF10 and eat some toffee from Thorntons with Kate, and have a shower...or I might have a shower in the morning...I dunno...
But things are looking up, so hopefully tmrw will be okay.
Love you all, stay safe
~Ary x