Hmm.
Oh hi LJ. How's it going?
I'm tired. Mostly dealing with school and getting shit done (sorta). I had my internship interview and it went really well. I'm glad, I was really super nervous about this. I felt so good after it, they really seemed to like me and my work. I really hope I get this one, but there's still a few other places I still need to check out. But I really want this, so cross my fingers on that!
I'm still having that slightly inferior feeling in my color theory class. And I hate feeling like that. It's totally an egotistical thing, I know that, but I hate it. I hate that it makes me feel like that. But my current project is turning out so good. I'm really excited about it, I'll post it once I finish it. I just have to understand that this isn't part of my major, it's not part of what I should be so worried and concerned about. Everyone else in that class is heading towards Illustration and Fine Arts, but DAMN. About 90% of them are fucking talented.
Sunday my family came up to have brunch with me for Jesus Zombie Day and it was pretty nice. It's always nice to have people visit. And sometimes I need the break up. It's been the same sort of thing over and over again. School and work, maybe I might get the chance to go out and do something.
Which leaves me to how I've been feeling. Tired and drained. Going through the same thing everyday sort of takes that feeling out of you. Like my motivation level dropped (which isn't completely true, since I get all my work done). But I have this feeling of a cloud over my head, like I'm kind of wandering through everything and unaware of my surroundings. And I hate this feeling. It makes me feel like I haven't had contact with anyone, like I struggle with that or that I haven't had any real sort of contact with people. But that doesn't make sense, I see people every day. I don't know how to exactly explain this feeling. Like I haven't spoken to anyone I know or care about in years.
But yes. Otherwise things have been progressing quite alright. School's almost over and I can't wait to just relax a bit from that. Is it time for Otakon yet?
I'm tired. Mostly dealing with school and getting shit done (sorta). I had my internship interview and it went really well. I'm glad, I was really super nervous about this. I felt so good after it, they really seemed to like me and my work. I really hope I get this one, but there's still a few other places I still need to check out. But I really want this, so cross my fingers on that!
I'm still having that slightly inferior feeling in my color theory class. And I hate feeling like that. It's totally an egotistical thing, I know that, but I hate it. I hate that it makes me feel like that. But my current project is turning out so good. I'm really excited about it, I'll post it once I finish it. I just have to understand that this isn't part of my major, it's not part of what I should be so worried and concerned about. Everyone else in that class is heading towards Illustration and Fine Arts, but DAMN. About 90% of them are fucking talented.
Sunday my family came up to have brunch with me for Jesus Zombie Day and it was pretty nice. It's always nice to have people visit. And sometimes I need the break up. It's been the same sort of thing over and over again. School and work, maybe I might get the chance to go out and do something.
Which leaves me to how I've been feeling. Tired and drained. Going through the same thing everyday sort of takes that feeling out of you. Like my motivation level dropped (which isn't completely true, since I get all my work done). But I have this feeling of a cloud over my head, like I'm kind of wandering through everything and unaware of my surroundings. And I hate this feeling. It makes me feel like I haven't had contact with anyone, like I struggle with that or that I haven't had any real sort of contact with people. But that doesn't make sense, I see people every day. I don't know how to exactly explain this feeling. Like I haven't spoken to anyone I know or care about in years.
But yes. Otherwise things have been progressing quite alright. School's almost over and I can't wait to just relax a bit from that. Is it time for Otakon yet?