Iced Gaze 3/??

[neko_mikyo]

Title: Iced Gaze
Author: neko-mikyo
Chapters: 3/??
Genre: Angst, Humour, Fluff, (romance to come)
Rating/warnings: PG-15, (NC-17?) / Yelling, Violent, Cursing
Band(s): Dir en Grey
Pairing(s): Diex?, ToshiyaxShinya, KaoruxDie (One-sided?)
Summary: Die had been coming for months always late to band practises.
And Kyo is getting pissed off with it. Kaoru in other hand wants to wait Die to come there.
Die had been telling them that they could start practising without him, and they had but because of Kaoru they always stayed there until Die came.
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, unfortunately. Only own the story!
Comments: Okay guys.. I’M REALLY SORRY! *bows*
That this next chapter has took like forever to come out.. I’m so sorry.. anyway I hope you all would forgive me now that I finally got it here :’D ..and I really hope you guys enjoy it~! :P

Chapter1 ● Chapter2

‘Argh.. change already!’ Kaoru yelled in his mind. They were at traffic lights.
‘Oh god.. Will you change already?! ..Why are they even lighted.. Here’s not even traffic!’ He started tapping his cars wheel.
‘Oh.. my nerves..’ ‘Should I just drive ahead to red lights..’ Kaoru watched at the traffic light.
Die watched Kaoru carefully.
He did notice that Kaoru was upset and nervous.. And maybe a lot more,
but he didn’t want Kaoru to yell at him so he didn’t open his mouth.
He just watched Kaoru, and thought to himself that what should he do or
say to make Kao feel easier.

They already had stood there about 5 minutes. And that light hasn’t change.
Just when Die was about to say that Kao should just drive ahead,
light finally changed to green.
Kaoru noticed that and put his gas to the limit. He was driving like crazy to his house.
He stopped the car to its place and jumped out of the car.
He slammed his side door close and walked to his houses stairs.
Then he stopped and watched back to his car.

Die was still sitting inside Kaorus car. He side-eyed Kao and lowered his head
so that his hair hide his face. He bites his lower lip and sighed.
‘Should I go to his place? I got the feeling that this is not going to go well..’
he bite again his lower lip. ‘Hell with this..’ He closed his eyes.
Deep sigh left his lips and he straightened himself.
And he was about to get a grip on doors handle, but he got a grip to something softer.
He was shocked and opened his eyes and jumped so that his head bumped to the cars roof.
“Oow.. mm.. My head” Die holds his head and grits his teeth’s.
Then he glanced to his right, to see what he touched earlier.
He saw Kaoru standing and smiling awkwardly. Kaoru was holding the door open.
“Umm.. Die? Are you coming out someday?” He tried to smile more self-confidently.
‘It was only accident.. He didn’t notice me..’ Kaoru was thinking
while trying to keep his embarrassed feelings away.
‘H-He only touched my shirt.. t-that’s all..’
‘Shit!’ He mumbled out the word and shook his head.

Die watched Kaoru and nod a little.
Then he came out of the car and just stood next to Kaorus car.
“Uhmm.. I’m sorry Kao..” He said quietly. And Kaoru closed his cars door.
He raises an eyebrow to Dies apology and watched him.

--------Near Kyo’s House--------

Kyo walks trough the streets.
He tapped all the lamp pillars and watched to his feet’s.
Then he took few faster steps and punches one of the lamp pillars with all he got.
He grits his teeth’s to the pain. His breaths heavy and his gaze is still to his feet’s.
He closes own eyes and sigh lowly.
Then he opens them and watches to the ground around the lamp pillar.
He sees own blood dripping to ground and running down at the pillar.
He smiles slyly to himself.

‘Heh.. I’m going to hear a much about this from Kaoru..’ I smile to myself.
‘But this pain is a punishment, to my caused pain to Die’ my smile fades.
I took my hand away from the pillar that has/is now little dented.
I look at my hand and grit my teeth’s when I touch my bleeding scratches.
But then again my sly smile comes back when I saw my bone sticking out from my skin.
‘Oh.. I guess I’m going to hear a lot about this one..’ I smile again to myself.
I raise my gaze to watch the streets in front of me. ‘Better go home now..’.

--------Same time at Toshiya’s car--------

“Shin, what are you doing?” Toshiya asked while watching
Shinya opening the door half naked.
“W-well it’s hot in here..” Shinya said uncomfortably and gasped in surprise
when he felt cold fingers around his waist.
“Oh.. did I scare you..?” Toshiya grin’s to Shinya’s neck.
“Toshy..” Shinya whines and pouts at the same time.
Toshiya snuggles closer to Shinya and kisses his neck and shoulder “I love you..”
he mumbles in between the kisses.
Shinya leans his back against Toshiya’s chest and kisses his cheek
“ I love you too..” he blushes.
And he starts massaging Toshy’s scalp with his right hand.
Feeling the soft hair between his fingers, and making a small smile
come to his blushed face.

--------Little later--------

Kaoru was staring at Die. He put his hand on Die’s shoulder.
“What’s wrong? Why are you apologising?” he asked.
Die squirmed a little for the touch.
“I think it’s better if I go home..” Die said and raised his gaze to meet Kaoru’s
“..that is why I said sorry” he said silently lowering his gaze again.
Kaoru was pondering really hard that why all of a sudden Die wanted home,
but he was too tired so he gave up after few seconds.
“Ok.. you don’t have to apologize” he scratched his head while pondering again
“Do you want a ride?” he asked. Die grinned a little, but it soon disappeared.
“No.. I’m okay.. I can walk after all” he gave a little smile,
while he seriously needed a ride. Kaoru stared at him “You sure? it’s a long walk..”.
As Die was about to answer Kaoru continued “.. and I don’t want to see you come late to work AGAIN..” he glared at Die tiredly.
“Uh.. eh heh.. i-I promise I’m going to be on time..” Die said stuttering under
Kaoru’s glare. “Don’t lie to me..” Kaoru said and yawned a little
“..I’m going to give you a ride and that’s it!”.
Kaoru thought that he was acting oddly grumpy, he blamed his tiredness.
He walked to his side of the car and opened the door and sat in.
Die looked at Kaoru for awhile, but he just shrugged and got in to the car too.

As they were driving to Die’s place, the silence was overly uncomfortable.
Well in Die’s opinion. He didn’t like the silence between them, but he didn’t feel like blunting out something stupid either. So he kept his silence and stared out of the window.
Suddenly the rain started pouring down really hard.
It gave this deafening sound when it hit the cars metallic skin.
Somehow it felt nice watching it, and the rain was calming too oddly ‘cause it really made a lot of ruckus.
He stared at the rain like it was hypnotising him, but in the end he stared into nothingness. He was tangled into his thoughts again, into those depressed thoughts.
His expression fading into doll-like empty expression.
As he was about to drown into his thoughts, he was alerted by the scene in front of him.
He saw… ‘Kyo?’ Die said in his mind. He stared at the small figure that was soaking wet.
For some weird reason he was starting to panic.
He looked around him in the car trying to find out where he was.
Then he saw the address sign and understood that they were only two blocks away from his house. ‘W-Why the hell is Kyo here?!’ ..’Is he coming to my house?’ ..
‘What the hell?!’ I glanced at Kaoru and saw him stopping the car.
I stared out of the window, to only see my house there.
I started to bite my lower lip in anxiety.
‘Why was Kyo here? ..he lives like more near to Toshy and Kao’ .. ‘W-Why.. Why is he here?!’ again I started to panic.
Suddenly I felt the rain hitting my face and I glanced up to see Kaoru’s worried face.
“Die..? What’s wrong?” Kaoru said worriedly.
I didn’t feel like telling him about my really insane panicked thoughts.
“N-Nothing.. I just started to feel chilly” a lie. But it wasn’t the first time.
“You sure..? ..i won’t ask again..” Kaoru said calmly but still worriedly.
“Yeah.. i.. I’m sure..” I got out of his car and smiled at him a little.
“Go straight to sleep then..” he said looking at me. “Aye Aye Captain” I grinned to him.
“You dork..” he snickered back to me and seemed relieved. I didn’t feel panic anymore.
I felt like just smiling like a dork.
Somehow Kaoru always made me smile when I didn’t feel like it, somehow I always
feel relaxed around him too.
He patted my shoulder and smiled to me, and then he shut the passengers’ door
and walked to the other side of the car.
“See you tomorrow then.. Hmm?” he said when he opened the door.
“Yup.. Night” I waved a little to him and he waved back.
And then he got into the car. He started the engine and waved again and drove away.
I just for awhile looked after him, even though he had already disappeared into the distance.

I smiled to myself and turned around to walk into my apartment.
But then I saw him sitting on my apartments stairs, staring at me all soaked wet
with no emotion to find on his expression.
I wouldn’t say I was shocked but surprised. My mouth moved and let out a word.. “Kyo..?”.

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I don’t know… but..
I kinda like how it starts but don’t like the middle part :’D
mostly I mean the Toshy and Shin car part :/
and then again i like how it ends so.. dunno *LOL*

Comments and Criticism are Luv.. ^^
need’s to know that am still doing good job XD

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