well let me tell you...
yesterday... it was a pretty fun day. i got to stay up late bake brownes meet some new people poke fun at one of our dorm mates. all that stuff. around 2 in the morning i go to bed. the next thing i know i hear voices and they are not voices i reconise. as i slowly become awake i find two RAs in my room and that there was a fire alarm and i was the only one in the dorm. so i put back on my pants and get a jacket on because it is 5 in the morning and it is freezing out side. (by the way this is the third fire alrarm that went off so far) as i walk down the stares i am a little bewildered. confused on how i could have slept though those alarms. i get down to the first floor and there were these police officers and they asked me why i was still in the building and i toled them i slept though the alarm and they were like were you unable to hear it. and i was like duh no i was asleep. but i didnt say that.
soon i walked to where everyone was being held while the building was being checked for any more straggalers. i find three of my dorm mates and i try to joke about the situation but try to get answers as to why my room mate didnt wake me up. they said they yelled for me and called my cell phone. WHAT THE FUCK! if i slept thought the fire alarm which is probably going on while you are yelling at me to wake up how in hell am i suposed to wake up. some of my room mates didnt know where i was and i dont blame them. and it kind of hits me if it were a real fire i would have been dead. (i knew that it was a false alarm because ther was no fire at all) i relized that i would have bunred to death in my sleep or maybe get traped in fire because all my room mate did was yell at me to get up. if it were me who was a wake and my room mate who was dead aleep and wouldnt get up i would have pulled her off her bed in the very least. yes she would be grumpy and have a bruse but she would have her life. as all of this runs though my head i stand there with those three people and i coulnt be with them any more.
so i walk off.
they let me go to. so i sit down in an almost secluded corner and start to cry. not like boo hoo im sad cry. i mean i was bawling. with snot running down my nose and all that. but i was able to keep quiet for the most part. someone i have no idea who asked me if i was ok and i said i was fine and he walked past me to his friends. i sit there for like twenty minutes and i calm down during that time. and thank the gods i forgot the napkins earlier at lunch time in my jaket pocket.
Then two of my dorm mates come up and another friend who i hadnt seen yet. i was kind of relived when they came. and im not exactly sure what was said but i remember raising my voice because i wasnt in control of my voice at that time. and on of my room mates take it personaly. and starts yelling at me that she was going to RAs telling them that she didnt know where i was and that she was worried. but the thing was i was trying to tell her i didnt blame her. but she wouldnt let me finnish and she walked away. and then the other to just stand there over me as i start to cry again.
and they just walked away.
and left me.
not too long after that one of the RAs comes out with a mega phone and tells us that building B was going to join us and that the alarms were tampered with again. right after that we were allowed back into the building and walk back up the stairs to our rooms. (on these days i hate anyone who lives on the third floor down.)
before i got up from sitting on the grownd i kind of just wanted to sit there. i didnt really care. but one of the guys who were staying over at our dorm who was really nice caught sight of me and waved at me and told me to come on. i dont think he knew what was going on. when i get back to the dorms and go strait to my room and get into bed. and then shortly after my room mate comes in. i couldnt sleep so i waited for almost everyone to get into bed. and i went to the living room and the nice guy and one of my dorm mates boy friend were playing video games as the sun came up. so i sat on the couch and watched them. around 7 they turn off the games and they leave with my dorm mate and they didnt get any sleep at all.
i go back to sleep. and i dont get up till 1pm. i feel like crap. and i still havent talked to anyone because the all went off some where. probably the dinning commons for lunch. i dont really care at the moment.
i think part of me gives up.