so...yeah
lately, i've been starting to question my morals. like, does everything really happen for a reason? i don't know if i believe that anymore. i'm starting to think that things happen because you make them happen yourself. what's the justification in saying that things happen for a reason? you can't say that about everything that happens. it doesn't make problems go away, and it doesn't really give you a piece of mind, it only makes you question it more. i really think i need to tell my morals to shove it. they get in the way of everything. maybe it'll be easier if i just start from scratch. this whole year, i've been changing, and i like who i've changed into for the most part. i'm not as shy as i was before, and it's a lot easier to let my guard down and just have a good time, but my morals still make me feel guilty sometimes, and i'm sick of it. it's my life, and i can change it however i want to, so i should be able to change my morals too, and this is what i've decided to change them to:
*don't do what you think is right, do what you think is right for you
*don't let people control you, you're in control of your own life
*don't be afraid to go out on a limb because the only one who can make it snap is you
*take risks because certain risks will never be offered to you again
*don't linger in yesterday when you have tomorrow to look forward to
*don't be upset when you make a mistake because that's how you learn
*don't stress out over things you can't control because you have no control over them
i'm sure i'll be adding to the list as i go along, but you get the general idea. i'm just so sick and tired of feeling like i have no control over my life, and always worrying about doing what's "right"...i'm not gonna be doing that anymore. from now on, i'm gonna do whatever the hell i feel like doing. you only live once, so stop living by "the rules". make your own friggin rules, and live by them if you feel like it. at least you'll know that they're there, and that should be enough to get you by, and if you feel the need to dish them out, then dish them out. plain and simple. done.
take that!
*don't do what you think is right, do what you think is right for you
*don't let people control you, you're in control of your own life
*don't be afraid to go out on a limb because the only one who can make it snap is you
*take risks because certain risks will never be offered to you again
*don't linger in yesterday when you have tomorrow to look forward to
*don't be upset when you make a mistake because that's how you learn
*don't stress out over things you can't control because you have no control over them
i'm sure i'll be adding to the list as i go along, but you get the general idea. i'm just so sick and tired of feeling like i have no control over my life, and always worrying about doing what's "right"...i'm not gonna be doing that anymore. from now on, i'm gonna do whatever the hell i feel like doing. you only live once, so stop living by "the rules". make your own friggin rules, and live by them if you feel like it. at least you'll know that they're there, and that should be enough to get you by, and if you feel the need to dish them out, then dish them out. plain and simple. done.
take that!