Friday the 13
Today is suc a KEWL day...I know ppl think its the bad luck of the century day, but I think of it this way, even though I'm Irish and ( your supposed to have that luck of the irsih thing, I dont) So on Friday the 13 I realised I had a REALLY good day today, its liek my favorite day of the year, excluding the important ones to our history like Martin Luther King Junior Day, and Memorial Day, Independance Day, Valentines day sucks, because I.....just dont mesh well with zee boys, its like I dont know all valentines days turn out really wild. Last Valentines day this kid about 16, i 17 sang to me while we were dancing....how many times does that happen in a lifetime? I mean I was really embaressed, and I DO NOT like embarassing situations, if I'm in one I'd find an excuse to run and flee as fast as I can.....without hurting the other persons feelings ofcourse. Today was just an overall good day, I CANT get over it, its like....breathing fresh air on the beach. ;D really good! Thsi week has genuinely been good. On Monday I have to do this thing its liek an inservice where some selcted students talk about stuff....I actually participated in 2, one is websites.Basically i searched for websited that involved drugfree, teen issues, health issues (some I'm actually experiencing at this moment)I'm not going to pretend that I dont ahve a eating disorder, I just dont think its all that serious, I eat some of the time...I had a bowl of dry cereal when I came home today......and um....well i ll find something else, but I DO eat Something! My stomache hurts all the time, how is someone supposed to enjoy eating if they feel like YUCK all the time. Anyway I got this kewl T Shirt for participating in this thing. Its like a light orange, and I love that color (clothes wize). Other then that, just waiting patiently till Football starts....I dont know who my bf will be then, or if I'll have one then, but he better not care about a crazy steelers fan, or he's out for a suprise!
I also been doing a lot of research on things, because I like to keep my brain very active on things, kee my brain active whenever possible. Anyway so I did this study....and I have a LOT of problems lol...I didnt realise I was hiding so much. The factor that I dont get a lot of sleep and that I have a low self esteem is a combination for VERY BIG stress problems, meaning anxiety, and one thing that turns that anxiety way up is Making Choices... So, after the day when i couldnt decide what I wanted to do m yFinal Project on, i realised I was having an anziety attack ...And I remeeberd a few months ago I did that same thing when I had this project that I was doing all by myself, since my partner likes to...be lazy? But she was really sick , so I didnt care too much....I got to draw. ANYWAY the point is, that this has become an issue, and I'm adressing the issue. I looked it up somewhere and it showed this thing called Decidophobia, its basically a combination of lack of sleep self esteem ect. And it listed top 10 things about limiting my choices to not be able to decide. the number one was religion, basically ppl like me like religion because there are limitations and rules...therefore it eliminates choosing. I kind of ...felt a little sad. i love my religion, I'd hate to think of it as.....an escape from choosing. Oh well its 8 and mums coming home early.....I havnt seen her since...........Monday morning when she was running late. i wonder if I can remeber her face, lol.....I dont even know if that was a joke!
I also been doing a lot of research on things, because I like to keep my brain very active on things, kee my brain active whenever possible. Anyway so I did this study....and I have a LOT of problems lol...I didnt realise I was hiding so much. The factor that I dont get a lot of sleep and that I have a low self esteem is a combination for VERY BIG stress problems, meaning anxiety, and one thing that turns that anxiety way up is Making Choices... So, after the day when i couldnt decide what I wanted to do m yFinal Project on, i realised I was having an anziety attack ...And I remeeberd a few months ago I did that same thing when I had this project that I was doing all by myself, since my partner likes to...be lazy? But she was really sick , so I didnt care too much....I got to draw. ANYWAY the point is, that this has become an issue, and I'm adressing the issue. I looked it up somewhere and it showed this thing called Decidophobia, its basically a combination of lack of sleep self esteem ect. And it listed top 10 things about limiting my choices to not be able to decide. the number one was religion, basically ppl like me like religion because there are limitations and rules...therefore it eliminates choosing. I kind of ...felt a little sad. i love my religion, I'd hate to think of it as.....an escape from choosing. Oh well its 8 and mums coming home early.....I havnt seen her since...........Monday morning when she was running late. i wonder if I can remeber her face, lol.....I dont even know if that was a joke!