Life kinda.actually REALLY sux sometimes.
I just leanred this morning on the way to school that My grandma just had Cardiac Arrest, My dad said that she could die really really soon. This is like the 9th time she's gone under. I just feel selfish , because I really dont want her to leave me....People keep on telling me that somethings dont last forever. So then I go through that denail process...I try not to do that...but I cant help it. its like went something really bad happens My emotions are all locked up, like I'm afraid to let anything hurt me. My sister coming really soon so we're super child proofing the house. I cant wait to see her. She is SO BEAUTIFUL. My whole family is beautiful, but it skipped a generation for me.I think that maybe I have the best personality, because as you know the ugly ones always have the best personality! Well I'm not all that ugly ...kinda average. I do like making jokes with Jess about how hot it is , when we're outside, and then say something like and its NOT just the temperature. But that's just joking. John is workingnow, so I cant like laugh and joke around with him now. Seriously everyone is getting so boring latley...If someone ever CALLED me boring, I'd flip DISHES and thats a plural on that dish. My stomache is killing me, thnx to them good ol lunch ladies, I ask them if theres milk in a particular product for a REASON, but do they listen to me? I dont think so! I'm taking a week off from exams and getting it all done a week early, i only have a few anyhow. My dad has this kinda feeling that something might be wrong with my stomache, not just the milk thing, but it could be more serious, so now I'm thinking I have stomache cancer or something....I joked about dying at age 30 or something, I didnt mean it literally...oh well if that what the lord wants.