I was a child and I sounded like a child. I did not think so then. I will never outgrow my juvenilia. It will come with me. It will carry me and I will never set foot on real ground or escape the gaping maw in which I am borne.

Traveling alone is difficult. The mind wanders. I try not to smell the crushed bodies of the worms. On the wet sidewalk they are smeared and the dense earth-scent rises from the water. I walk to avoid worms, dead or alive. Small actions, simple plans; I am stuffed with nothing. Cotton thoughts and punctuated silence. My mouth is full of glass. ( Read more... )

As artists we must write till the sickness goes away. write until the hands can steady the mind and the tongue and the viscera moving the ideation. God preserve me. I was born down on a red earth and a blue dawn with currents that carry the tide of things; the red earth eats away at my acid-burned linings and membranes. I have a disease in my ( Read more... )

( he burst his hot heart’s shell upon it )

"Hark ye yet again, - the little lower layer. All visible objects, man, are but as pasteboard masks. But in each event - in the living act, the undoubted deed - there, some unknown but still reasoning thing, puts forth the moldings of its features from behind the unreasoning mask. If man will strike, strike through the mask! How can the prisoner ( Read more... )

"...what they complained about Charles Tansley was that until he had turned the whole thing round and made it somehow reflect himself and disparage them - he was not satisfied. And he would go to picture galleries they said and he would ask one, did one like his tie? God knows, said Rose, one did not ( Read more... )

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I had just a house once;  an industrial electric city, now a kingdom of bird’s breaths and crumbling syntax and a stitch in my voice. My poor fool hanged. Begin again ( Read more... )

18 - All My Bones

Must speak   how not to understand   would carry it with us

Must speak   would understand   how to carry it with us

Must speak   must carry it with us   to understand

[her eyes are so big and her
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