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Can I say I hate my life? I dont, but I do hate aspects of it. I hate how I always project what will happen and it doesnt. It gets me down sometimes. I wish I didnt go out tonight, just sitting here would have been nicer. I dont want to know more people, cause the more I know, the less I like, and the more I realize people are assholes. Too many people are pricks alot, and not any of my friends per say, but I jsut get this sort of strange vibe around some of these social gatherings, like I shouldnt be there. Like Im better off just sitting at home reading a book. So many of my friends have sort of branched out and made their own circles and life styles, and I miss some of them, and others I just dont know. I feel disconnected alot. I think Im going to stop hanging out with people for a week. Take some time off and just do my own thing for a change. I dont need to feel like this any more. I need some more good relationships in my life, and more friendly people to be around that are more uplifting and not so... self righious. Drunk though is an excuse, cause I do the same thing alot when Im drunk, but oh well.
My life is so confussing sometimes. Right when you think you know what you are doing, the whole game changes. I have jons keys in my pocket, dont let me forget.
Jealousy is something I need to change, cause I have my own world, and others have theirs, and I shouldnt judge myself compared to them, I should rejoice in my own findings and good fortunes.
I am the downfall of time.
I want to be loved.
My life is so confussing sometimes. Right when you think you know what you are doing, the whole game changes. I have jons keys in my pocket, dont let me forget.
Jealousy is something I need to change, cause I have my own world, and others have theirs, and I shouldnt judge myself compared to them, I should rejoice in my own findings and good fortunes.
I am the downfall of time.
I want to be loved.