When he left me...: Chapter 11
Title: When he left me...
Pairing: Ohmiya, Jun/ ?, Sho/oc, Nino/oc
Rating: PG
genre: Romance, drama, fluff, family, AU
Plot: Nino broke up with his boyfriend Satoshi. Six years later, Satoshi discover all the truth
Warning: bad english xD
[Chapter 11]
- 38.4 ° C. Jun said, looking at the thermometer he had just removed from my mouth.
My friend then sighs and stick a cool patch on my forehead before making me swallow a piece of toast and a pill for the fever. It had been a long time since I had been lying in my own bed, but my friend insisted that I lied there because I was sick.
- Well, you stay there. I have an hour free after the lunch break, I will come back to make you eat properly.
- And ... Satoe-chan ... I say.
- Don't worry about that, I made her her lunch and I'll take her to school. Do you really think you can get out of this bed in your state?
Only a raucous sound escapes from my mouth, causing a coughing fit to wake the dead.
- That's what I thought. I leave you a big bottle of water here. See you later, little one. He said with a smirk, leaving me alone in the shadows of the room.
The headache is pounding my skull, my throat burns and I'm abominably hot under my blanket but once out of it, my body freezes instantly. I hate to be sick. Out of the room, I hear Jun and Satoe chat with each other and leave the apartment. I'm alone. My eyes stares at the ceiling, finding it a sudden interest, but eventually close to plunge back into sleep.
*****
It's dark all around me but I can see a familiar silhouette in the distance in front of me.
- Hey ! I scream in hope to see the person turn around.
No effect. So I decide to get closer but the more I move forward the more the silhouette go back. I accelerate. Again and again and again so much that the person is finally only a few meters ahead of me and once arrived at his height, I put my hand on his shoulder and he turns with a smile that I could never forget.
- Kazu?
- Yo Satoyan!
- But ... but ... you are ...
- Dead, I know. We are in a dream, baka! He said, ruffling my hair.
This gesture seems to me so true.
- It's dark here. Kazu said.
My ex-lover snaps his fingers and instantly, we find ourselves in the living room of our old apartment. He then settle on the couch while continuing to watch me with a smile.
- Sit down, Satoyan.
I obey, wondering what turn this dream was going to take. Sitting next to him, strangely, I could feel his warmth. But the scariest was when he ran his hand through my hair.
- Your hair has grown. He says.
- Fatally, since all this years.
- Gomen.
- It's not your fault, you took your responsibilities. You have a great daughter, Kazu.
He nods silently.
- Can I kiss you ?
- Huh? Um yes...
Kazu approaches me and puts his lips on mine in a brief kiss. Making me dive back in the middle of the years of intense happiness that I lived with him.
- I miss you. He said.
- It's me who should tell you that.
- I blame myself a lot.
- Stop saying that.
- I should not have taken the wheel.
- What? What are you talking to me about?
But my question remains unanswered and he disappears along with my entire dream to leave room for the color of the ceiling above my head.
*****
Thanks to medication, I feel a little better and find the strength to get up. So I decide to get out of bed to get Kazu's diary in his bag on my dresser in order to find answers to his last strange sentence. Of course, I keep in mind that this was just a dream caused by fever but we never know. The problem is that the bag is empty.
- eh? Do I silently before coughing again.
I was sure to have stored it there. But for now, I'm cold and I don't want more than that to return all my apartment, that's why I go back to my bed put me warm under the blancket.
Jun returns two hours later and enters my room.
- Hey, You look better. He says.
His cheeks are a little red and a silly little smile does not leave his face since he entered. Something happened or he met someone. I'm leaning towards the second option.
- Is there a new teacher in high school? I then ask as he puts his hand on my forehead.
- No why ?
- You look very happy. As if you had flashed on someone.
- You're just saying bullshit due to the fever... he said with an embarrassed little laugh, sticking a new patch on my forehead. I'm going to make soup for you, I took vegetables on the way.
And he leaves the room, fleeing the conversation. I roll my eyes and sniff a little. My hand then seizes a tissue in the box on my bedside table and begins to empty my nose and scraped my throat before going back to bed with my phone. Captivated by one of my apps, I jump when Jun comes back to the room with a bowl of soup and other pills for fever, all is arranged on a tray that he installs on my lap.
- It's Ikuta-sensei.
- What?
- That makes me that effect.
I almost spit my spoonful of soup on hearing my friend's words.
- Are you in love with the teacher of Satoe-chan?
- I know, it's stupid, I just saw him like ... 5 minutes. But ... I don't know ... when I saw him, my heart accelerated all alone, I was hot, I didn't stop stuttering and his smile dear god, it ended up finish me. Stop laughing !
- But it's so cute! You had a crush, Jun! Exactly like when I met Kazu.
- I can't do much...
- Of course yes, you have to offer him a dinner.
- And if we are not on the same side? Did you think about it?
- Yeah ... I say before coughing.
- The problem is that I can't get him out of my head, this guy obsesses me.
- Try dinner and at worst ... you'll have a good friend.
- You're good advice for someone who does not want to find a new boyfriend.
- I fell in love before, that's all. At the time I would have liked someone to tell me such things, if Kazu had not taken the lead, I think I would still be a virgin.
- I will do without details, thank you. And take your medicine.
I obey swallowing the pills with a swig of water. Kazu's diary goes through my mind.
- Jun?
- Hum?
- Do you have seen Kazu's diary? I can't find it anymore.
- No, sorry.
- It's nothing.
I go back to bed, puzzled. I don't know where I could have misplaced this notebook, I don't often go out of the apartment yet... Finally, too bad. I will search for it correctly when I will not be sick anymore. All I want for the moment is to go back to sleep a few hours. I close my eyes. Some time later, Jun returns to the room but leaves immediately, probably because he does not want to disturb me. I then very vaguely hear the front door close before diving back into my dreams.
*****
Kazu is near me again but not only, Sho-san is there too. They turn their backs but I can't join them, my legs refuse to move and my voice to reach them.
- No change ? Sakurai asks.
Kazu shakes his head.
- Satoe miss you, Nino. She still needs you, remember it.
- I know all that ! Satoshi also needs me! If I could do something, I would do it right away but it's impossible ...
Sho-san sighs and puts his hand on my lover's shoulder. Why do they seem to know each other?
- I know.
I don't have the time to ask myself the question that the darkness envelops me again and I find myself in front of the fence of a baseball field. Kazu is there at the bat. I should be in the stands with the other spectators but he needs me, I am his lucky charm. I remember this game. An inter-university match. The pitcher throws the ball, Kazu focuses for half a second, anticipates the movement of the projectile and hits a spectacular homerun. He run from base to base cheered by supporters but only mine come to him, I know it. He continues his race and finishes the turn of the field. His teammates jump on him and the moment my eyes meet his, I can see him shine as ever. He finally arrives near me running and kisses me passionately, carelessly fleeing people around us.
- It's thanks to you, I love you, Satoshi. He whispers.
He embraces me. His warmth spreads throughout my body and makes me feel good. But I know it's just a dream ...
*****
The door opens slowly. I open my eyes. It's Satoe coming in and kneeling beside my bed. I smile at her.
- Are you feeling better Satoshi-kun?
- Hum. How was it at school?
- It was great ! You know what ? Jun-kun was all weird with Ikuta-sensei.
- How weird?
- He was all red and he did not speak well then he had a funny smile.
- I see I see. I say, trying not to laugh.
- Now he is sitting on the couch and he don't move anymore, he is even still all red.
Ouch. Was my friend rejected ? I take off the quilt and get up. Staggering a little, I go to the door.
- Satoshi-kun, aren't you sick, don't you have to stay in bed?
- I'm better, Satoe-chan, I have to talk to Jun-kun all by myself. I say in my hoarse voice.
Indeed, when I leave the room I find a scarlet tomato with the face of Jun who is motionless on the couch. I then sit near him to know the reasons for such a state.
- Have you been rejected?
He shakes his head from right to left.
- What? You didn't ask him?
- Yes I did...
- So what ?
- He said yes ...
- But it's great! That means you have a chance with him!
- Why did you force me to do that ?! He shoots suddenly.
- But I dont understand...
- Oh my God ! He said yes, it makes my stomach aches even more!
- It's love that ...
- Oh shut up!
A shiver runs through my spine. I backtrack to return to my room retaining somehow my laughter. It's only once the door is closed and I get back under the sheets while Satoe looks at an image book, so my best friend is adorable. But this is only short-lived before I start coughing like a madman and I hear Jun scream, "This is your karma!" through the closed door.
*****
I'm in the street, motionless. It's snowing and the shops around have posted their most beautiful Christmas decoration. On the pavement opposite, I see Kazu walking with a big bag slung over his shoulder, a backpack and a strange bundle that he hold tight against his chest. He is in a hurry and I follow him at a good distance to the apartment where he is returning. I ring. He comes to open to me but his eyes show a mixture of surprise and terror.
- Sa ... Satoshi ... what are you doing here?
- I finally found you, Kazu, please, let me talk to you ...
- We're no longer together, leave me now... he says, closing the door.
I hold it firmly and make him let it go.
- I can't live without you anymore, Kazu. Come back to me! I ... I'll change if I have to! Tell me and I'll do it!
- It's impossible ... I'm sorry ...
He tries again to close the door. I hear in his voice that he is close to crying, which causes a weight to drop in my chest.
- Go away, she may hear you ...
- Do you live with someone else?
- Yes ... well no ... I ...
The rage takes hold of me and without hearing more, I push the door and enters the apartment, pass the hallway while Kazu tries to stop me and finally arrives in the living room. What I see then makes the anger go down in me and replace it with total incomprehension. The room is filled with toys, small pink or animals-printed clothes and bibs are stacked in a clothesline on the coffee table next to a half-empty baby bottle with frogs on it. And finally, in a playpen at the back of the room, a little baby with dark eyes and pink cheeks stares at me with open mouth.
- Huh?
- It's a long story. Just says Kazunari going ahead of me to take the baby who began to chirp at his sight.
He takes a pacifier in the big bag he had on the shoulder which is now on the couch, and hands it to the baby before kissing its forehead.
- Satoshi, This is Satoe, my daughter.
*****
I wake up with a jolt. What was this dream? And why does it seem so real to me? It's impossible, I never saw Kazu again and I only knew Satoe about two months ago. My alarm clock shows 3h. Why seek a rational explanation to a banal dream? I don't know why I'm worried, actually. My throat is dry, so I get out of bed on tiptoe without waking up Jun and Satoe and go to the kitchen to drink at the tap and go back to bed.
My hand touches my forehead. It's still a little hot, it's true. It's probably because of the fever that I made all those dreams today. I watch my friend and Satoe sleep for a moment and ask myself for a minute if this improvised camping will last a long time. Maybe I should move now that I have Satoe, she will grow up, she will need her own space and I hope that Jun will not stay forever at home. I imagine briefly my friend become a little housewife and greet me every day in apron while he prepares the meal but sleep does not take long to weigh down my eyelids and I go back to sleep, wrapped in the heat and the softness of my blankets.
Pairing: Ohmiya, Jun/ ?, Sho/oc, Nino/oc
Rating: PG
genre: Romance, drama, fluff, family, AU
Plot: Nino broke up with his boyfriend Satoshi. Six years later, Satoshi discover all the truth
Warning: bad english xD
[Chapter 11]
- 38.4 ° C. Jun said, looking at the thermometer he had just removed from my mouth.
My friend then sighs and stick a cool patch on my forehead before making me swallow a piece of toast and a pill for the fever. It had been a long time since I had been lying in my own bed, but my friend insisted that I lied there because I was sick.
- Well, you stay there. I have an hour free after the lunch break, I will come back to make you eat properly.
- And ... Satoe-chan ... I say.
- Don't worry about that, I made her her lunch and I'll take her to school. Do you really think you can get out of this bed in your state?
Only a raucous sound escapes from my mouth, causing a coughing fit to wake the dead.
- That's what I thought. I leave you a big bottle of water here. See you later, little one. He said with a smirk, leaving me alone in the shadows of the room.
The headache is pounding my skull, my throat burns and I'm abominably hot under my blanket but once out of it, my body freezes instantly. I hate to be sick. Out of the room, I hear Jun and Satoe chat with each other and leave the apartment. I'm alone. My eyes stares at the ceiling, finding it a sudden interest, but eventually close to plunge back into sleep.
*****
It's dark all around me but I can see a familiar silhouette in the distance in front of me.
- Hey ! I scream in hope to see the person turn around.
No effect. So I decide to get closer but the more I move forward the more the silhouette go back. I accelerate. Again and again and again so much that the person is finally only a few meters ahead of me and once arrived at his height, I put my hand on his shoulder and he turns with a smile that I could never forget.
- Kazu?
- Yo Satoyan!
- But ... but ... you are ...
- Dead, I know. We are in a dream, baka! He said, ruffling my hair.
This gesture seems to me so true.
- It's dark here. Kazu said.
My ex-lover snaps his fingers and instantly, we find ourselves in the living room of our old apartment. He then settle on the couch while continuing to watch me with a smile.
- Sit down, Satoyan.
I obey, wondering what turn this dream was going to take. Sitting next to him, strangely, I could feel his warmth. But the scariest was when he ran his hand through my hair.
- Your hair has grown. He says.
- Fatally, since all this years.
- Gomen.
- It's not your fault, you took your responsibilities. You have a great daughter, Kazu.
He nods silently.
- Can I kiss you ?
- Huh? Um yes...
Kazu approaches me and puts his lips on mine in a brief kiss. Making me dive back in the middle of the years of intense happiness that I lived with him.
- I miss you. He said.
- It's me who should tell you that.
- I blame myself a lot.
- Stop saying that.
- I should not have taken the wheel.
- What? What are you talking to me about?
But my question remains unanswered and he disappears along with my entire dream to leave room for the color of the ceiling above my head.
*****
Thanks to medication, I feel a little better and find the strength to get up. So I decide to get out of bed to get Kazu's diary in his bag on my dresser in order to find answers to his last strange sentence. Of course, I keep in mind that this was just a dream caused by fever but we never know. The problem is that the bag is empty.
- eh? Do I silently before coughing again.
I was sure to have stored it there. But for now, I'm cold and I don't want more than that to return all my apartment, that's why I go back to my bed put me warm under the blancket.
Jun returns two hours later and enters my room.
- Hey, You look better. He says.
His cheeks are a little red and a silly little smile does not leave his face since he entered. Something happened or he met someone. I'm leaning towards the second option.
- Is there a new teacher in high school? I then ask as he puts his hand on my forehead.
- No why ?
- You look very happy. As if you had flashed on someone.
- You're just saying bullshit due to the fever... he said with an embarrassed little laugh, sticking a new patch on my forehead. I'm going to make soup for you, I took vegetables on the way.
And he leaves the room, fleeing the conversation. I roll my eyes and sniff a little. My hand then seizes a tissue in the box on my bedside table and begins to empty my nose and scraped my throat before going back to bed with my phone. Captivated by one of my apps, I jump when Jun comes back to the room with a bowl of soup and other pills for fever, all is arranged on a tray that he installs on my lap.
- It's Ikuta-sensei.
- What?
- That makes me that effect.
I almost spit my spoonful of soup on hearing my friend's words.
- Are you in love with the teacher of Satoe-chan?
- I know, it's stupid, I just saw him like ... 5 minutes. But ... I don't know ... when I saw him, my heart accelerated all alone, I was hot, I didn't stop stuttering and his smile dear god, it ended up finish me. Stop laughing !
- But it's so cute! You had a crush, Jun! Exactly like when I met Kazu.
- I can't do much...
- Of course yes, you have to offer him a dinner.
- And if we are not on the same side? Did you think about it?
- Yeah ... I say before coughing.
- The problem is that I can't get him out of my head, this guy obsesses me.
- Try dinner and at worst ... you'll have a good friend.
- You're good advice for someone who does not want to find a new boyfriend.
- I fell in love before, that's all. At the time I would have liked someone to tell me such things, if Kazu had not taken the lead, I think I would still be a virgin.
- I will do without details, thank you. And take your medicine.
I obey swallowing the pills with a swig of water. Kazu's diary goes through my mind.
- Jun?
- Hum?
- Do you have seen Kazu's diary? I can't find it anymore.
- No, sorry.
- It's nothing.
I go back to bed, puzzled. I don't know where I could have misplaced this notebook, I don't often go out of the apartment yet... Finally, too bad. I will search for it correctly when I will not be sick anymore. All I want for the moment is to go back to sleep a few hours. I close my eyes. Some time later, Jun returns to the room but leaves immediately, probably because he does not want to disturb me. I then very vaguely hear the front door close before diving back into my dreams.
*****
Kazu is near me again but not only, Sho-san is there too. They turn their backs but I can't join them, my legs refuse to move and my voice to reach them.
- No change ? Sakurai asks.
Kazu shakes his head.
- Satoe miss you, Nino. She still needs you, remember it.
- I know all that ! Satoshi also needs me! If I could do something, I would do it right away but it's impossible ...
Sho-san sighs and puts his hand on my lover's shoulder. Why do they seem to know each other?
- I know.
I don't have the time to ask myself the question that the darkness envelops me again and I find myself in front of the fence of a baseball field. Kazu is there at the bat. I should be in the stands with the other spectators but he needs me, I am his lucky charm. I remember this game. An inter-university match. The pitcher throws the ball, Kazu focuses for half a second, anticipates the movement of the projectile and hits a spectacular homerun. He run from base to base cheered by supporters but only mine come to him, I know it. He continues his race and finishes the turn of the field. His teammates jump on him and the moment my eyes meet his, I can see him shine as ever. He finally arrives near me running and kisses me passionately, carelessly fleeing people around us.
- It's thanks to you, I love you, Satoshi. He whispers.
He embraces me. His warmth spreads throughout my body and makes me feel good. But I know it's just a dream ...
*****
The door opens slowly. I open my eyes. It's Satoe coming in and kneeling beside my bed. I smile at her.
- Are you feeling better Satoshi-kun?
- Hum. How was it at school?
- It was great ! You know what ? Jun-kun was all weird with Ikuta-sensei.
- How weird?
- He was all red and he did not speak well then he had a funny smile.
- I see I see. I say, trying not to laugh.
- Now he is sitting on the couch and he don't move anymore, he is even still all red.
Ouch. Was my friend rejected ? I take off the quilt and get up. Staggering a little, I go to the door.
- Satoshi-kun, aren't you sick, don't you have to stay in bed?
- I'm better, Satoe-chan, I have to talk to Jun-kun all by myself. I say in my hoarse voice.
Indeed, when I leave the room I find a scarlet tomato with the face of Jun who is motionless on the couch. I then sit near him to know the reasons for such a state.
- Have you been rejected?
He shakes his head from right to left.
- What? You didn't ask him?
- Yes I did...
- So what ?
- He said yes ...
- But it's great! That means you have a chance with him!
- Why did you force me to do that ?! He shoots suddenly.
- But I dont understand...
- Oh my God ! He said yes, it makes my stomach aches even more!
- It's love that ...
- Oh shut up!
A shiver runs through my spine. I backtrack to return to my room retaining somehow my laughter. It's only once the door is closed and I get back under the sheets while Satoe looks at an image book, so my best friend is adorable. But this is only short-lived before I start coughing like a madman and I hear Jun scream, "This is your karma!" through the closed door.
*****
I'm in the street, motionless. It's snowing and the shops around have posted their most beautiful Christmas decoration. On the pavement opposite, I see Kazu walking with a big bag slung over his shoulder, a backpack and a strange bundle that he hold tight against his chest. He is in a hurry and I follow him at a good distance to the apartment where he is returning. I ring. He comes to open to me but his eyes show a mixture of surprise and terror.
- Sa ... Satoshi ... what are you doing here?
- I finally found you, Kazu, please, let me talk to you ...
- We're no longer together, leave me now... he says, closing the door.
I hold it firmly and make him let it go.
- I can't live without you anymore, Kazu. Come back to me! I ... I'll change if I have to! Tell me and I'll do it!
- It's impossible ... I'm sorry ...
He tries again to close the door. I hear in his voice that he is close to crying, which causes a weight to drop in my chest.
- Go away, she may hear you ...
- Do you live with someone else?
- Yes ... well no ... I ...
The rage takes hold of me and without hearing more, I push the door and enters the apartment, pass the hallway while Kazu tries to stop me and finally arrives in the living room. What I see then makes the anger go down in me and replace it with total incomprehension. The room is filled with toys, small pink or animals-printed clothes and bibs are stacked in a clothesline on the coffee table next to a half-empty baby bottle with frogs on it. And finally, in a playpen at the back of the room, a little baby with dark eyes and pink cheeks stares at me with open mouth.
- Huh?
- It's a long story. Just says Kazunari going ahead of me to take the baby who began to chirp at his sight.
He takes a pacifier in the big bag he had on the shoulder which is now on the couch, and hands it to the baby before kissing its forehead.
- Satoshi, This is Satoe, my daughter.
*****
I wake up with a jolt. What was this dream? And why does it seem so real to me? It's impossible, I never saw Kazu again and I only knew Satoe about two months ago. My alarm clock shows 3h. Why seek a rational explanation to a banal dream? I don't know why I'm worried, actually. My throat is dry, so I get out of bed on tiptoe without waking up Jun and Satoe and go to the kitchen to drink at the tap and go back to bed.
My hand touches my forehead. It's still a little hot, it's true. It's probably because of the fever that I made all those dreams today. I watch my friend and Satoe sleep for a moment and ask myself for a minute if this improvised camping will last a long time. Maybe I should move now that I have Satoe, she will grow up, she will need her own space and I hope that Jun will not stay forever at home. I imagine briefly my friend become a little housewife and greet me every day in apron while he prepares the meal but sleep does not take long to weigh down my eyelids and I go back to sleep, wrapped in the heat and the softness of my blankets.