Sherlock: The Reichenbach Fall (ep reaction)

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"You look sad when you think he can't see you."

(x-posted from tumblr)

I physically cannot stop crying right now.

That is not an exaggeration. It is physically impossible.

Here is the following hysterical John screencap taken from the most inappropriate place to find a hilarious face like that, in order to make it stop hurting enough that I can see the whole keyboard:



LOL!

"I was so alone... and I owe you so much." "One more thing, one more miracle, Sherlock, for me... Don't. be... dead. Would you, just for me, just stop it. Stop this."

...

Wait, give me another minute, I'll be okay.

...

First of all my fic still remains canon compliant and it's freaking me out--not necessarily how well I "guessed it", but I suppose how amazing this show is that Icould have.

(FTR, the thing that clinched it was Sherlock's "I need you". because... oh god not again. where's a fucking tissue.)

Second of all, Molly was winning that whole fucking episode because of "you look sad when you think he can't see you" and "I don't count" and "what do you need?"(oh god Molly I will never forgive you/always love you for that one)... until (and, oh god I'm gonna have to rewatch the scene to get the quotes aren't I) "I'm a fake" and "keep your eyes fixed on me!" and throwing yourself the fuck off a building to save three people whilst cementing the lie your nemesis spread about you that ruined a name that was your entire fucking life... because you finally worked out what you need.

I.... can't.

(And then John had to go and beat everyone in that last bit...)

Thirdly: there was very little Mycroft in that episode, but every single moment of what was there was like stabbing me in the face with the angst. Mycroft Holmes, always in control, Mycroft Holmes, who never makes a single mistake... made one mistake, and killed his little brother. The only thing he would flout the entire fucking govt for. One mistake. I can't...

Also Sally. Wow, ouch. So many crazy two-season cyclical arcs.

Martin Freeman is forbidden from whimpering/sniffling/everything ever forevermore.

Fuckin' therapist................

And: maybe someday I will convince Weeds to do a fanvid of Sherlock to "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)"... because fuck.

(I'll talk about the plot when I don't feel like ripping this towel up, yeah?)

***

This whole season was about... not just friendship, and aloneness, and "what would I need you for?" (you now have an answer, Sherlock), and Sherlock admitting he's Not Fine, but also about doubt. Everything was about doubt, and doubt was what terrified an extraordinary man, "killed" a great man, made a good man cry (hint: Moff is a troll and the two were the same person, in a sense)... and what brought him back.

Except then...

"You told me once that you weren't a hero, um--there were times I didn't even think you were human--but, lemme tell you this, you were the best man, and the most human... human being, that I've ever known, and no one will ever convince me that you told me a lie."

Excuse me while I go blow my nose in a fucking towel again.

Oh, and, Moriarty...

The Final Problem was "stayin' alive". The Final Solution was... you don't have to. You don't have to, because Sherlock Holmes is extraordinary, like you, he is you, and he's beaten you, so you don't have to stay alive any more.

Brilliant...

***

Things to say:

• MOLLY
• Molly vs Irene
• being a woman is hard on Sherlock too...
• I Don't Hate Mycroft (apparently everyone does)
• Fairytales
• Music
• The Tea Party Scene
• I.O.U
• great man/good man (i.e. Sherlock became a good man, the great man died, they're all the same thing, Moffat sucks etc etc)
• MOLLLLYYYYYYY.
• What's going on at the end? (Sherlock obviously either didn't know what Molly would do, or didn't know if it'd work...?)
• Andrew fucking Scott and the awards he needs to have.
• "No, I know you for real." "100%?" "Nobody could fake being such an annoying dick all the time."
• Who the fuck is the dude yelling at Lestrade in a Yorkshire accent. I hate you. I'm glad John punched you. 
• That punch after "bit of a weirdo if you ask me..." totally didn't make me think of Trobed and "she called you weird!" Nope. Noooooooope...
• Gaygaygay. Gaydiddygay.
• Creys for Lestrade tho.
• The whole actor plot line that I can't even with right now... wow.
• A LIE THAT'S PREFERABLE TO THE TRUTH. Whole season, right the fuck there.
• "You machine..."
• "Alone is what I have, alone protects me." "Nope. Friends protect people." Season in a nutshell a-fucking-gain.
• Sherlock got it wrong because it wasn't clever.

'kay I'm done. ugh. so dead.

no more crying... I think...