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Michelle is far beyond my ability to cheer up. And that bothers me. I should be able to make her happy. But, of course, once again, I am useless. It really bothers me. But that's okay. I'm not fucking God, I guess. Although I wish I was. Fuck, this world would be different.....
I got a lot on my mind I need to talk to Michelle about, but she's already got enough on her plate.
Stabbing Westward--So Far Away
Each night I feel the distance that has grown between us
Open up as lonely as the space between the stars
I wish that I could find a way
To smash my fist right through these walls
Of ugliness and emptiness
And gently touch your face
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
As you lie silently beside me choking back your tears
I wonder if you recognize
That silence now defines us
Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense
That I may never find
The strength to change
How hopeless we've become
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence that's between us
So I scream your name
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
And every time that you reach out
You feel me pull away
And every time that I touch you, I touch you, I touch you
You feel so far away
.:[sigh]:.
I am seriously going to snap one of these days on anyone who says anything else on me. I'm going to snap, black out, and kill them. I can see it now. I take too much shit from people, and I'm tired of it. I have a home life, you know. Combined with the shit at school, I can't take much more. Hmmmm.... Let's change moods, shall we? yes....
So. I love Michelle. She loves me. That's nice. I went to her house last night, and, as soon as I got in there, I hugged her. I hugged her and it was the best fucking hug I've ever had. It felt like I hadn't hugged her in ages. I hadn't seen her since Thursday; it's really hard, going for a while without her. It really is. I love her so damn much. I'm gonna lose her. There's too much running here at stake. I'm a bastard. I'm going to do something fatal, something wrong. But I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts. 12:27..... Fuck beans.....
I don't have much else to say. Sorry about the half-emo entry. I feel useless right now and LJ is the only way I can get out my feelings.
I got a lot on my mind I need to talk to Michelle about, but she's already got enough on her plate.
Stabbing Westward--So Far Away
Each night I feel the distance that has grown between us
Open up as lonely as the space between the stars
I wish that I could find a way
To smash my fist right through these walls
Of ugliness and emptiness
And gently touch your face
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
As you lie silently beside me choking back your tears
I wonder if you recognize
That silence now defines us
Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense
That I may never find
The strength to change
How hopeless we've become
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence that's between us
So I scream your name
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
And every time that you reach out
You feel me pull away
And every time that I touch you, I touch you, I touch you
You feel so far away
.:[sigh]:.
I am seriously going to snap one of these days on anyone who says anything else on me. I'm going to snap, black out, and kill them. I can see it now. I take too much shit from people, and I'm tired of it. I have a home life, you know. Combined with the shit at school, I can't take much more. Hmmmm.... Let's change moods, shall we? yes....
So. I love Michelle. She loves me. That's nice. I went to her house last night, and, as soon as I got in there, I hugged her. I hugged her and it was the best fucking hug I've ever had. It felt like I hadn't hugged her in ages. I hadn't seen her since Thursday; it's really hard, going for a while without her. It really is. I love her so damn much. I'm gonna lose her. There's too much running here at stake. I'm a bastard. I'm going to do something fatal, something wrong. But I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts. 12:27..... Fuck beans.....
I don't have much else to say. Sorry about the half-emo entry. I feel useless right now and LJ is the only way I can get out my feelings.