New Month, new focus
So my goals went out the window for the past month. My mood has been... subdued. But it's a new month and I will make it a good one somehow.
Obviously there's a lot of disappointment in failed goals. In addition to the writing, my weight went up instead of down over April, so I'm 15 pounds heavier than I wanted to be right now. Burger King for lunch didn't help. When I was first on my diet I had a focus that has been lacking. I think both for my finances (I'm eating out too much and it gets expensive) and for my health I need to plan meals better. Trying to find a way to do that.
With respect to writing... I need to get over the fact that no one I love really gives two shits about my writing and write anyway. It's hard, but I need to do it. This NOT writing... it's not working for me. My failed goals include:
Obviously there's a lot of disappointment in failed goals. In addition to the writing, my weight went up instead of down over April, so I'm 15 pounds heavier than I wanted to be right now. Burger King for lunch didn't help. When I was first on my diet I had a focus that has been lacking. I think both for my finances (I'm eating out too much and it gets expensive) and for my health I need to plan meals better. Trying to find a way to do that.
With respect to writing... I need to get over the fact that no one I love really gives two shits about my writing and write anyway. It's hard, but I need to do it. This NOT writing... it's not working for me. My failed goals include:
- I will focus more on my fiction writing this year. To start: Sensuality: Depraved, my first novel which I started in 1994 or 1995 in my dorm room, staring at a picture of Eric Nies (sp) shirtless and wading in water. The current draft is at 38K words and has been languishing. I will finish the first draft of it this month (January). This is now at 45K words, but not done. FAIL.
- I will edit and complete at least one piece of writing and submit it to a publisher by February 1st of this year. Done. Twice even. Both rejected, but I can't fault myself for not trying
- I will complete my 4th year nano novel by March 31. TOTAL FAIL
- I will complete my 3rd year nano novel by May 31. haven't started, but it's not impossible to finish in that time frame.
- I am committing to losing 105 pounds by the end of this year. I can do this. I've done it before. This means monthly goals of 10 pounds weight loss. I was doing good on this until last month when I gained five pounds instead of losing 10. That puts me 15 pounds... almost two months... behind on my goal
- exercise. Program yet to be determined, but some form of exercise must happen at least 4 days a week. Five is better. TOTAL FAIL
- diet. yes diet. I'm going to be radical this year and suggest introducing green growing things slowly into my diet. To start: at least one apple a week. I know that's not much, but anyone reading this blog should know the enormity of that step for me. Also, water and lots of it. At least 8 glasses a day. I'll come up with a system to track it. this was going good for a while (and I had the weight loss to prove it) but it came to a screeching halt over the past month. FAIL