Did I miss something here?...confused and hurt

[necromantix]

I was reading my best friends journal today, because I needed to catch up on peoples lives, who i seem to be no part of anymore, and I found myself so upset i was in tears, i didnt know this was how she felt, but they are afterall just words, and i hope when she returns that she will talk to me about what she is feeling, instead of posting it online where i have to read it and not know what to feel about it, i cant help but feel hurt, and very aggressive right now...School is good, I am off probation as of Friday which is fun, in two weeks i think i have a musical too do, no valentines for me, what else is new...i am so upset i dont even know what too write...I want to talk to her so badly and understand where it all came from...me and him are doing well...i have a meeting tomorrow for cutters...it should go over well...and i have to go out to eat tomorrow, which is a change in pace for me...i have full intentions in rearranging this room...me and angel are debating on what we should do...i miss home, i miss the few people that still think i am alive...jake is completely out of the picture...no more hurt, no more pain, no more hate...it was a good night tonight up until the point where i decided to get on this stupid journal thing that no one reads...
fuck it...good night

Its hard to care when you dont know if they care back...

†Jezzica Marie†

I do believe in love again...and its a good thing...Later