walking under clouds, too low to reach above them

[necromancer99]

what can i say? there is alot going on in my head right now. many thoughts. many feelings. many words i wish to speak but go unheard. if only i can speak. i am a mute right now. all my feelings r on my sleeves. i have nothing to hide but now i must. two wonderful nights of seeing that special person who reached inside me and touched my heart. wat a great time it was. the first night i tried too hard to avoid all feelings and to walk away when feelings were shown. wat a fool i am. i did not understand why any of it. i still dont but i want to find out. last night was great. i once again tried to not let my feelings get the best of me. only this time i was not being a prick like the night b4. i was friendly this time around. saw the movie sin city. wat a kick ass film. frank millers comic stayed true in the film. during the movie, my angel layed her head on my shoulder. it felt wonderful. ive waited a long time for that. just any kind of touch. i felt at peace. on the way home, she grabbed my arm and hugged it. another joyous moment of the night. that wasnt the best moment of the night tho. to me the best moment was seeing her walk infront of my car to her side. that first glance at her. i knew i was looking at the single greatest beauty in my life. nothing else mattered to me. the music blaring in my car went deaf to my ears. just seeing her was the greatest thing. i wish to spend more time with her. i really do.

i wish to reach for something but i cant reach it. it is out of my grasp. i keep extending my arms to reach it. my angel is there with what i am reaching for. i scream at the top of my lungs for her to extend it to me but she cant hear me. she wont extend till she is ready.

my analogies may be weird and subliminal but its the best way i can describe it without saying it out.