Why can't we be friends?
I try to be a happy person, in fact I am trying to find ways to be even happier. I am doing what I can to get right with the Lord and the people that have made an impact on my life that I have lost contact with/wronged/shunned and anything you can think of that is hurtful. Do you want to know the hardest part? Trying to let things go, the past included because there is nothing I can do to change it. It is even harder when someone that you really can't break away from is constantly mad at you about something and just bottles it in, refusing to talk to you about it and treats you like utter crap. It is not like I can say "get over it" or "screw you" because this person has me by the balls (proverbial not literal)and controls when I see my daughter. So I have to suck it up and freaking take it, saying "yes sir, can I please have another". And yet, we're friends...according to him anyway. Is that how any of you treat your friends?
A lesson I learned, a really hard one at that, is you need friends and as many as you can get. Even if you have a thousand, you can always use one more. It is no excuse but I ran my friends off because I have a disease that I didn't understand for many years and couldn't control my feelings, emotions, or actions. Now that I know what I have, I can embrace it and make an effort to control my symptoms. As far as I know, he isn't bipolar so I guess he thinks that he really doesn't need me as a friend. I'm just a convenience to him I believe. It is so sad that it has to be this way.
But I do have to say this: Thank you Heather for always being there for me even though we don't talk as much as we used to and are seperated by over a thousand miles. You have always been my best friend, no matter what. You are probably the only friend that has really stuck with me in all of my craziness. I love you, my SIC. :)
A lesson I learned, a really hard one at that, is you need friends and as many as you can get. Even if you have a thousand, you can always use one more. It is no excuse but I ran my friends off because I have a disease that I didn't understand for many years and couldn't control my feelings, emotions, or actions. Now that I know what I have, I can embrace it and make an effort to control my symptoms. As far as I know, he isn't bipolar so I guess he thinks that he really doesn't need me as a friend. I'm just a convenience to him I believe. It is so sad that it has to be this way.
But I do have to say this: Thank you Heather for always being there for me even though we don't talk as much as we used to and are seperated by over a thousand miles. You have always been my best friend, no matter what. You are probably the only friend that has really stuck with me in all of my craziness. I love you, my SIC. :)