Stuff and junk
I know I haven't updated in a while but life is happening and I can't take a break from it to update, well until now that is. I am sitting up with quite a powerful toothache that I need to call about as soon as the dentist office opens. I have taken 800 mg of ibuprofen and it is helping a little. My face is still puffy and it is slightly throbbing but I will live. :)
As some of you already know from reading Chris' lj, he and I are getting a divorce. That is not entirely what I wanted but maybe it is for the best. It shocked the hell out of everyone that we have told because no one saw this coming and some people even thought we were joking. I honestly wish we were. I still love my husband very much but I know that I need to get some things straightened out with me before I can make him or anyone else happy. I have been on 'scripts up until 2 weeks ago when I ran out and just didn't have the time to go back to the doctor and get more. Today I go back and see my doctor and I think I am going to talk his ear off about everything that has been going on. Maybe he can give me some insight on how to deal with all of this. I really don't want this to end in a divorce but the decision isn't up to me.
I also have been working all of the time. Yesterday and today are my off days and I hope to get a lot of stuff accomplished. Yesterday I got the living room and kitchen somewhat clean because I had company over for the better part of the day. I loved the fact that they came by the house and ate lunch with me and played Magic but it was the first time either of them had been into our home and as soon as they got here, they started cleaning! First of all, the house has been a disaster area to say the least because of my hectic work schedule and Christmas parties/Thanksgiving dinners. I haven't really had the time to put in effort to make it presentable so I was already feeling embarrassed about that. I was also raised in the south and when you invite people into your home, you cater to them and they sit back and relax, not come in and do your stuff for you. I don't think I would have minded so much if they were long time friends of mine who visited me frequently but I did mind and no amount of begging and pleading for them to stop seemed to work. Finally I had to take stuff out of my friend's hand and make him go sit down. I got on WoW later last night and he told me that the next time I invited them over and I didn't let them help then he was leaving. I was rather pissed about that comment because you don't give someone an ultimatum about cleaning their house. That is just rude. I like him and his girlfriend a lot but I don't feel comfortable letting people into my house with no option of them not cleaning. I know it is "the way they are" but it is not the "way I am". I appreciate all of the efforts honestly but it is not their place to do my housework.
I also received a phone call yesterday confirming that I got the apartment Chris and I looked at the other day. It is a really old apartment built back in the 1930s but it is so pretty. The bedrooms are kind of small but I don't have a lot of furniture for me so some of the girls' stuff can go in my room. I may just put Mel's crib in my room for a while because she is such a light sleeper and I am afraid that Erika would wake her up or she wake Erika up. I haven't decided yet. The living room is huge and there is a dining area that is pretty big as well and I am going to use that for the girls' play area. I don't have a lot of furniture so I can put our table in the living room and still have plenty of room. I am both scared and excited about the move. I have never lived alone or with just me and the kids so this is all going to be new to me.
I think I have rambled on enough and I am getting a little sleepy. :)
As some of you already know from reading Chris' lj, he and I are getting a divorce. That is not entirely what I wanted but maybe it is for the best. It shocked the hell out of everyone that we have told because no one saw this coming and some people even thought we were joking. I honestly wish we were. I still love my husband very much but I know that I need to get some things straightened out with me before I can make him or anyone else happy. I have been on 'scripts up until 2 weeks ago when I ran out and just didn't have the time to go back to the doctor and get more. Today I go back and see my doctor and I think I am going to talk his ear off about everything that has been going on. Maybe he can give me some insight on how to deal with all of this. I really don't want this to end in a divorce but the decision isn't up to me.
I also have been working all of the time. Yesterday and today are my off days and I hope to get a lot of stuff accomplished. Yesterday I got the living room and kitchen somewhat clean because I had company over for the better part of the day. I loved the fact that they came by the house and ate lunch with me and played Magic but it was the first time either of them had been into our home and as soon as they got here, they started cleaning! First of all, the house has been a disaster area to say the least because of my hectic work schedule and Christmas parties/Thanksgiving dinners. I haven't really had the time to put in effort to make it presentable so I was already feeling embarrassed about that. I was also raised in the south and when you invite people into your home, you cater to them and they sit back and relax, not come in and do your stuff for you. I don't think I would have minded so much if they were long time friends of mine who visited me frequently but I did mind and no amount of begging and pleading for them to stop seemed to work. Finally I had to take stuff out of my friend's hand and make him go sit down. I got on WoW later last night and he told me that the next time I invited them over and I didn't let them help then he was leaving. I was rather pissed about that comment because you don't give someone an ultimatum about cleaning their house. That is just rude. I like him and his girlfriend a lot but I don't feel comfortable letting people into my house with no option of them not cleaning. I know it is "the way they are" but it is not the "way I am". I appreciate all of the efforts honestly but it is not their place to do my housework.
I also received a phone call yesterday confirming that I got the apartment Chris and I looked at the other day. It is a really old apartment built back in the 1930s but it is so pretty. The bedrooms are kind of small but I don't have a lot of furniture for me so some of the girls' stuff can go in my room. I may just put Mel's crib in my room for a while because she is such a light sleeper and I am afraid that Erika would wake her up or she wake Erika up. I haven't decided yet. The living room is huge and there is a dining area that is pretty big as well and I am going to use that for the girls' play area. I don't have a lot of furniture so I can put our table in the living room and still have plenty of room. I am both scared and excited about the move. I have never lived alone or with just me and the kids so this is all going to be new to me.
I think I have rambled on enough and I am getting a little sleepy. :)