Recent Events
This is the second week of me being at my new job. It's going well, but I'm always so busy that it's difficult to get anything else done.
The same pattern has been happening between me and my girlfriend. Sometimes she's gone -- I don't know where, and she gets all indignant with me when I ask who she's with or what she's doing. And it feels like she hides things from me.
We had a big fight on the day of her birthday (I can't remember the circumstances at the moment.) I remember that I told her the truth, which is that if she loves someone else she should go be with that person, and that if she didn't stop doing this that I would find another girl. That's all true, and it wasn't a manipulative, idle threat. Later one thing she said about our fight (I'm paraphrasing) is that I'm not a strong guy emotionally, and that I should be more strong, and also be patient with her.
Then we made up and took the long journey to her sister's house, and ended up basically spending the entire weekend together. It was boring at her sister's place, but the next night we went to Terminal 21 food court, and ended up having some really hot sex that night.
When that happens I feel like a real jerk for doubting her, but then she goes and does weird stuff again.
Oh -- and I found a few notes at home that appear to be directed at her, one saying that "I want to see you every day, you know?" I'm not sure which person gave or received that note, but I'm guessing it was Fon? Who knows.
The past two days I've been exhausted from work. We haven't had sex. She keeps falling asleep, and I also have been super tired because she didn't even arrive home until after 10:30 p.m.
But, she has been loving and sweet to me, which makes me feel happy. When she walked in the door from work, she asked me to give her a hug, and we had a nice, loving embrace.
When I left this morning, she was supposed to go to work. But she didn't. She lazed around today, and then went out almost when I was supposed to come home from work.
So I sent her Line messages asking her what she was doing. She said she went to see a friend at Central World, and that she's finding me a shirt at Uniqlo. So, once again, I felt like a jerk for doubting her.
Now I'm waiting for her to come home again.
So, that's my update.