What A Difference A Year Makes !! (pics heavy)
Me! a year ago today, June 1st 2012
Its difficult to understand that this is how I was, and these pictures were taken after I'd already been loosing weight for six months too, my goodness!
I could not stand for longer than 10 seconds or so, could not make it to the toilet on time hardly ever, never made it into my own bathroom upstairs, in fact I was sleeping in the living room because of not being able to climb the stairs, so many things with the word "couldnt" in front of them, way too many to list I'll start getting sad thinking about it all.
My life back then was horrible and I hated it - HAD to do something about it, started six month previously with a very strict diet so was loosing weight rapidly even when these pictures were taken I had already lost 25.8 kg / 56.89 lbs / 4.06 stone, my BMI changed from 56.9 to 39.5 Jan 1st to June 1st 2012.
Fast forward a year, now I've lost a total of 70.1kg, 177.04 pounds / 11.04 stone my BMI has changed from 56.9 to 30.7
As I now weigh 12.77 stone 81.1kg, I have lost almost the same amount of weight that I am now, that feels amazing to me. I love that I can walk everywhere I need to be or just walking randomly because I can now, I love running, each time I see that athletics track I just have to do a round even if it means I have to arrive earlier than my session times to fit it in, I get in a run around the 400 metres track one way or another each time I'm passing by, tying my own shoe laces - never going to get bored of being able to do that myself, reaching for things myself, all sorts of little things like these have made me feel so alive, I'm filled with vitality and health now which I just love.
Braved going and trying out new things, I'm belly dancing !! who'd have thought it, plus nurturing the spiritual more meditative side now because obviously I used an enormous amount of inner strength and wisdom to stay on my chosen path into health not swaying despite well meaning advice along the way, I knew with every inch of me that I was doing the right thing so carried on doing it, so now I feel it important that I learn from my own strength and instead of being slightly afraid of the volume of it, I am embracing that specialness and loving it as well.
I feel incredibly proud of myself, for all sorts of reasons but mainly for not giving up especially when things were going in a direction that most would have thrown in the towel for, I kept my nerve and carried on regardless of what any one said to me, I've carried on and will keep going until I reach a recorded "normal" BMI body mass index and am nicely able to do the things I currently find a challenge like standing on one leg for example. Can not wait to do another post like this one in another six months time on December 1st to see how far I've travelled this year.
