Feeling Quite Raw
Today I went to the dentist, the appointment initially wasn't for me but hubby was quite scared to go on his own so he changed his one to a double one so I could get a checkup as well to be with him. He needs extensive work, is currently on antibiotics and needs to go to the hospital to have a whole head X-ray then have several teeth out and repaired.
I only need one filling and a good clean with polish. This is the first filling I need ever, I do not have any at all so far. This has made me feel immensely proud. I asked if I could have a whiter smile to match my new body shape and brighter personality, to which it was agreed so I am going back on Tuesday to have all this work done. Something else that made me feel quite triumphant was when the dentist asked me if I was scared of dentistry work or tools as well, to which I replied, "no! I'm not actually afraid of anything"
Started to feel a bit raw the other day, then by late last night it was quite raw thus emotionally painful. I booked in to see my specialist nurse this afternoon just before going to the dentist and we had a very long chat about things. She is so lovely, known her a long time now so talking with her is very easy. Apparently a lot of people go through a sort of elation phase following surgery then that is followed by a quietening down phase where you start to feel a bit lower which is all perfectly natural. She explained that as I have had so much work done inside my abdomen plus am dealing with a lot of extra things at present its only natural that I would start to feel overwhelmed with how everything has gone, because everything has been so successful and now I've been walking since last Thursday not even a week, its all massive.
I agree that it is all starting to feel massive. So glad I could have a chat like that, when I got home this evening I went on the treadmill in my room and did some weights, exercise always makes me feel much brighter can not wait for my next session this week and swimming club as well.
Had a very long conversation about other stuff that is going on at the moment too yesterday, it was both relieving and emotional afterwards because in one sense I needed to get a lot out but on the other I felt guilty having offloaded the way I did. My head space is a good one at the moment, tomorrow I'm cooking chicken and vegetable chinese style casserole to mark the day I left my first husband which was February 13th at 5:50pm.
Feeling very proud of my efforts I really am, walking has made me feel so different, I have wanted to be able to for so long now dreaming of it being able to put one foot in front of the other and just cover floor space and now I am a little bit more each day its marvellous. Hopefully the rawness I've been feeling the last few days will die down for me and I can start to enjoy things a bit more again this week.
I've started an Esculator (moving stairs) Revolution on Facebook today, I challenged everyone following my daily progress status updates that tomorrow, Wednesday 13th February 2013, if they see an escalator whilst out and about they have to ride up and down it up to three times, sharing where and when, photos or videos of the escalator. This follows on from my mad trip up and down the moving stairs in Debenhams over the weekend, it was so much fun being able to just randomly do that I thought everyone should have a go, ride an escalator just because you can. Celebrate the freedom of being able to do something just because you can on foot. I know I will be tomorrow, I'm taking Angelica to get her hair done in the morning, Sports Direct has a nice moving stairs at the entrance as the shop is upstairs, then there is Asda they have a rather long one I think. So fun to be had tomorrow for sure, might even get a video and after a month of different moving stairs, we can put the clips all together. How cool would that be :)
I only need one filling and a good clean with polish. This is the first filling I need ever, I do not have any at all so far. This has made me feel immensely proud. I asked if I could have a whiter smile to match my new body shape and brighter personality, to which it was agreed so I am going back on Tuesday to have all this work done. Something else that made me feel quite triumphant was when the dentist asked me if I was scared of dentistry work or tools as well, to which I replied, "no! I'm not actually afraid of anything"
Started to feel a bit raw the other day, then by late last night it was quite raw thus emotionally painful. I booked in to see my specialist nurse this afternoon just before going to the dentist and we had a very long chat about things. She is so lovely, known her a long time now so talking with her is very easy. Apparently a lot of people go through a sort of elation phase following surgery then that is followed by a quietening down phase where you start to feel a bit lower which is all perfectly natural. She explained that as I have had so much work done inside my abdomen plus am dealing with a lot of extra things at present its only natural that I would start to feel overwhelmed with how everything has gone, because everything has been so successful and now I've been walking since last Thursday not even a week, its all massive.
I agree that it is all starting to feel massive. So glad I could have a chat like that, when I got home this evening I went on the treadmill in my room and did some weights, exercise always makes me feel much brighter can not wait for my next session this week and swimming club as well.
Had a very long conversation about other stuff that is going on at the moment too yesterday, it was both relieving and emotional afterwards because in one sense I needed to get a lot out but on the other I felt guilty having offloaded the way I did. My head space is a good one at the moment, tomorrow I'm cooking chicken and vegetable chinese style casserole to mark the day I left my first husband which was February 13th at 5:50pm.
Feeling very proud of my efforts I really am, walking has made me feel so different, I have wanted to be able to for so long now dreaming of it being able to put one foot in front of the other and just cover floor space and now I am a little bit more each day its marvellous. Hopefully the rawness I've been feeling the last few days will die down for me and I can start to enjoy things a bit more again this week.
I've started an Esculator (moving stairs) Revolution on Facebook today, I challenged everyone following my daily progress status updates that tomorrow, Wednesday 13th February 2013, if they see an escalator whilst out and about they have to ride up and down it up to three times, sharing where and when, photos or videos of the escalator. This follows on from my mad trip up and down the moving stairs in Debenhams over the weekend, it was so much fun being able to just randomly do that I thought everyone should have a go, ride an escalator just because you can. Celebrate the freedom of being able to do something just because you can on foot. I know I will be tomorrow, I'm taking Angelica to get her hair done in the morning, Sports Direct has a nice moving stairs at the entrance as the shop is upstairs, then there is Asda they have a rather long one I think. So fun to be had tomorrow for sure, might even get a video and after a month of different moving stairs, we can put the clips all together. How cool would that be :)