grasshoppers love boxes that quake

[nearmirage]

hey job gods

hire me at the beacon
I need it
I need to move on from the friends school
I love it
but
damn I need new direction in my life

hey partner gods
I need a new partner
the last one was broken
send me a boyfriend
the girlfriend thing didnt work out
I oldher that I am only going to date men form now on
she was shocked and confused
no just kidding she wasnt she laughed and called me a fag
"oh coley you are big fag "
yeh
thats the truth
I held her purse when we went shopping
for a split second I pretended we were dating still
I like her more as a friend
I wonder whats worse being friends with your ex or not at all well see there are advantages and disadvantages to both. I mean I like the people I have dated a bunch and I think thats why we break up. I love them too much and I dont want that to end. Id rather break up and always be friends than have a terrible breakup and never talk to them. Maybe I should date someone I like less.

Its never enough for me. I am never enough for people. I think about that sometimes. I am more than enough for certain types. I am neither stupid nor flakey. I have this reputation for being flighty and having my head in the clouds. I dont know exactly how to feel about this. I know there are some who think I am out to lunch all the time but I dont actually think they are seeing the bigger picture.
Today I had a very tasty peach it was the juicy kind that ran down my chin and chest. I want to go to the beach and eat a peach.