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i have to leave in one hour to take an exam. i've been not really studying all day long. i guess maybe i actually do have ADD and maybe i really should take the adderall i am prescribed. i'll test it out tomorrow. i have a mountain of school work to do but too many fun things to do also. but i really can't screw up anymore. i have to be awesome.
i have a lot of things in my head right now.
recently i've been doing this thing where i'll be really tired and on the internet, and i'll buy things. i've been getting all these packages in the mail with no recollection of what they could be or when i made a purchase. when i open them, i have a vague glimmer of remembrance and that's all. obviously it's not a good thing that i am arbitrarily squandering funds right now, but it's also kind of hilarious and awesome. today i got a watch. it's really pretty actually, my subconsciousness did pretty good this time.
today my favorite form of procrastination has been cleaning. such is usually the case. today the specialty was dental hygiene. this is something that i like about myself.
lately i've been obsessively eating. i mean really actually gorging. it's a pretty interesting feeling. i can not be hungry, but if something is put in front of me i will literally inhale it. like really quickly and a lot at once. i feel frantic while it's happening and afterwards i regret it, but not too much, because i know it's only a phase and also food is really delicious so i can't regret it too much anyway.
i thought i had a crush on a boy last week and then he brought a girl to my birthday party. i stopped having a crush on him immediately. also, i think i'm gay.
i miss jessica bays. she got a girlfriend and now i never see or speak to her because she is never, ever available. and when i do it's kind of weird and sometimes i feel like she isn't being totally genuine and we all know how i feel about that.
i decided to apply for the sustainability studies program at uf.
i still have no idea what i'm doing with my life. but i also realized that it just absolutely does not matter.
i need to keep reminding myself to continue to play the lottery.
i have lists upon lists everywhere, all over my house. lists about making lists, even. they really help.
i have a lot of things in my head right now.
recently i've been doing this thing where i'll be really tired and on the internet, and i'll buy things. i've been getting all these packages in the mail with no recollection of what they could be or when i made a purchase. when i open them, i have a vague glimmer of remembrance and that's all. obviously it's not a good thing that i am arbitrarily squandering funds right now, but it's also kind of hilarious and awesome. today i got a watch. it's really pretty actually, my subconsciousness did pretty good this time.
today my favorite form of procrastination has been cleaning. such is usually the case. today the specialty was dental hygiene. this is something that i like about myself.
lately i've been obsessively eating. i mean really actually gorging. it's a pretty interesting feeling. i can not be hungry, but if something is put in front of me i will literally inhale it. like really quickly and a lot at once. i feel frantic while it's happening and afterwards i regret it, but not too much, because i know it's only a phase and also food is really delicious so i can't regret it too much anyway.
i thought i had a crush on a boy last week and then he brought a girl to my birthday party. i stopped having a crush on him immediately. also, i think i'm gay.
i miss jessica bays. she got a girlfriend and now i never see or speak to her because she is never, ever available. and when i do it's kind of weird and sometimes i feel like she isn't being totally genuine and we all know how i feel about that.
i decided to apply for the sustainability studies program at uf.
i still have no idea what i'm doing with my life. but i also realized that it just absolutely does not matter.
i need to keep reminding myself to continue to play the lottery.
i have lists upon lists everywhere, all over my house. lists about making lists, even. they really help.