I don't know what it is but before every exam result day, I get nervous; not the exams themselves just the results, normally I think man I should have revised more at the time, or more usually as this time, I should have revised. But it turned out ok in the end I pass into the second year with a 2:2, 1.5 marks of a 2:1; knowing full well I can do much better. Hell I got firsts on 2 exams and 2 pieces of coursework, as well as knowing I never really tried for any of it and I only scored lower than 60 four times. Most of my high 50s and 60s could have easily been higher if I had been bothered.
I really need to stop being so lazy and apathetic, a lecturer told me this year that I had "potential" and it was good to see a student who had potential who knew they could do better. I don't want to switch lazy for complacent. Next year will be different, I want to see how smart I really am, and how far I can really take this. Incidentally for anyone who knows my course I scored highest on Policy and Society, essentially the social history of Britain module score 64, my politics score was 52 lowered by non submission of the largest coursework (whoops), Business 55 lowered by needing some extra time for... the largest coursework and Globalisation 63.
You can read my 71 scoring social history essay on Education
here. ;)
In other news I hated Love and Monsters and I am working in a supermarket 5 evenings a week.