Honesty is ALWAYS the best way to go...
So after what seemed to be a wonderful Saturday night, turned into a horrible Sunday evening. He told me he loved me (just out of the blue), invited me to his family vacation and started making HIS own plans to live with me. Then Sunday he starts acting really pissy towards me, so I ask whats wrong, and apparently that was the WRONG question to ask. We got into a little argument and I pretty much didnt talk to him until 10 last night. I think we broke up, but I'm not mad, he was honest with me. He says he is scared to death to fall head over heels in love with someone because of what SHE did, and I cant blame him. He has to go through hell each and every day not being able to see his child grow up. He has to watch her grow up over myspace! Thats so wrong. I could understand her wanting to keep him away if he was a drug dealer, or a loser with no job, or just a horrible person. But what she doesnt realise is that there are more single women that I could count that would KILL to have a man like Adam, someone who pays a hell of a lot of money in child support, keeps a job, and CARES about his child. Some women have trouble getting $50 a month in child support from their childrens father , he pays 12x that much and she's still not happy.
I said that I wouldnt say anything bad about her, and I probably wouldnt to him, but now shes interfering with MY life and MY heart. I know that sounds selfish, but here I am, I'm in love with someone who's been so heartbroken by all this he's scared to death. I FINALLY was able to let my gaurd down and love again, after almost a year of trying to recover from Johnny, and its taken away from me by such a horrible woman. Idk things dont make sense anymore, he says he needs to be alone to get thinsg back on track, to buy a house and fight for full custody, but then this morning I get a "Good Morning" text message... which is something I havent gotten in over a week... its all very strange. But I CANT be mad at him, this isnt his fault and I dont think he's doing this to hurt me. I just hope that he knows if he ever needs me he can call me and I'd drop just about anything to be there for him. Its funny how two people who are so totally different can be so good for each other sometimes. When we go out, we ARE that couple you want to be. The ones who joke around with the waitress and who poke fun at each other. We're the ones sitting across from each other and not beside each other so we can SEE each other when we're talking. We're the couple that some how seems to expose they have a sex life (and not to mention an AMAZING sex life) where ever they go. We make people jealous. & I love it. I dont know if I'm single or still involved (officially) but I know that for right now... he has my heart.