Mar 05, 2004 01:23
Tonight we celebrated Lance's birthday! It was alot of fun. We went to Bahama Breeze, and then we went to a hockey game. The game was awesome!! It inspired all of us to want to play kickball, and also inspired me, and my partner in crime...miriam, to play soccer. I've been a soccer player all my life, but had not a team to be on after I turned 19. OH, how I long to play again. I thought in my head that Lance was probably thinking the same thing as he watched the hockey game. You just LONG for it. I think Christy probably thinks the same thing about dance too. It's like...when I didn't play because there were no older age teams, I didn't think that that may be the last time I would enjoy that. Just as many, who just stop...but when we are young we are naive and don't always think of the future. Anyhow, I have to get on a team!!!!! I LOVE IT.
Tonight is a night that I go home and begin to reflect. My parents are out of town, and I am home alone. Even though I don't talk to my parents much at all, when you are the only one in an empty house, it feels different....or at least I do. I think about weird things. Tonight I think of how I am thankful and glad that I have gone through bad things, and that I am in the place that I am right now, because that is where God wants me to be. Even though I get frustrated a lot, I know I'm where I'm supposed to be. I read a chapter out of Christ in You a couple of nights ago and it touched me SO much that I wanted to post it for everyone to see. But...then I thought, the reason I loved it is because it touched ME so much. What's funny is I hadn't read that book in awhile, but when I did it was EXACTLY what I needed to hear and what I was experiencing in life right now. I just loved it. I'm thankful for that book. I'm so thankful for God.
Basically,(the bottom line is...hee hee) that I'm at a bitter-sweet point in my life. I'm EVER so thankful for everything right now, because I know it is all for a reason, and for that I am thankul...because I'm being prepared. Then the other part of me, flesh, human desire, whatever you want to call it...is impatient, longing, and lonely. But all in all I come out on the top because I know God is taking care of me and I feel like I'm following His lead....I just need to be patient and thankful. I am thankful...I just REALLY need to pray for patience.
Funny, just tonight Christy was saying that she was thankful for the bad times she has been through. I agreed, but also think it's sad when anyone is going through hard times...just because it's sad. Anyhow. Just last night I was talking with Katie, and I was saying how I was so happy that I went through all the stuff I went through because it molded me, and my life. I guess that's why I think as you grow older, you become wiser. From prior experiences now I KNOW that no matter what I'm going through at the moment, I will get over it, and learn, and achieve what was needed from that time in my life.
I just have to say one more thing. I know that some people may think I'm silly for becoming a vegetarian, or being concerned with animals rights. I also want to say that I in no way, shape, or form, choose to select animals well being over human. ANYHOW. I think some people think it's silly. All I want to say is this: Everyone is different, and has a different personality and cares for different things. If we were all the same, then we would all be caring about just one thing. I think God put things on our heart to be concerned about so that every living thing is cared for. Not all people are that concerned about animals rights...but that's not bad. But I think the people who are, are supposed to be. Someone has to care....if they didn't there would be millions more animals that are suffering even more than they are now. As cheesy as it may sound...they do have feelings, and do feel pain. Ok, that's all I have to say...I'm just saying I don't think it's goofy. Someone's gotta care.
OK, so whoever wants to play kickball......HOOLLLLLAAAAAAA!!!! Cause it's goin' to be a GOOD TIME!!!!!!
"WHAAAAAAAT'S UPPPPPPPPPPPPP!"-Dan Jones