Body Issues
My whole life I have prided myself on not caring what others think of me. I care what I look like and, to a degree, how I present myself in public. Of course everyone does. We all want to make a good impression. But to really care? Never have. I’ve always been me and people are going to accept that or not.
Until I had an afternoon wedding to go to.
Since I was 11, I have had body issues. I have never accepted my body. No matter what I have done to try to lose it, I can not seem to lose the spare tire around my waist. I have starved myself. I have done crunches and cardio training. I have watched what I’ve eaten. I’ve done everything I know how to do and yet it stays.
I don’t usually wear anything other than jeans since I can pretty much hide my spare tire with jeans and a tee shirt, but an afternoon wedding doesn’t call for jeans and a tee shirt. It calls for a nice dress or slacks and a blouse.
Until I tried on everything and found myself nearly in tears did I realize how deep my body issues ran. Nothing looked nice.
This showed off how short I was. This showed off the spare tire I was trying to hide.
Ultimately, I had to wear the last thing I put on, whether or not I liked it, because I had to leave. I spent the entire wedding covering my midsection, embarrassed that my rolls could be seen.
I have two wonderful friends who are amazingly thin. While they can be called too thin, I found myself wishing, at that moment, I was that thin.
Then, I began to wonder if they have body issues too. Even though they’re thin, do they look at themselves in the mirror and nearly cry because they have some issue with how they see their body?
Everyone kept telling me how nice I looked, but I could only smile. I felt completely uncomfortable and, as much as I loved the bride, couldn’t wait for the wedding to be over with so I could get home and get in something comfortable.
So, here is my question: How many readers have body issues and what are they, if you’ll share.
I can’t believe that I’m the only one with body issues that run as deep as they do.
Until I had an afternoon wedding to go to.
Since I was 11, I have had body issues. I have never accepted my body. No matter what I have done to try to lose it, I can not seem to lose the spare tire around my waist. I have starved myself. I have done crunches and cardio training. I have watched what I’ve eaten. I’ve done everything I know how to do and yet it stays.
I don’t usually wear anything other than jeans since I can pretty much hide my spare tire with jeans and a tee shirt, but an afternoon wedding doesn’t call for jeans and a tee shirt. It calls for a nice dress or slacks and a blouse.
Until I tried on everything and found myself nearly in tears did I realize how deep my body issues ran. Nothing looked nice.
This showed off how short I was. This showed off the spare tire I was trying to hide.
Ultimately, I had to wear the last thing I put on, whether or not I liked it, because I had to leave. I spent the entire wedding covering my midsection, embarrassed that my rolls could be seen.
I have two wonderful friends who are amazingly thin. While they can be called too thin, I found myself wishing, at that moment, I was that thin.
Then, I began to wonder if they have body issues too. Even though they’re thin, do they look at themselves in the mirror and nearly cry because they have some issue with how they see their body?
Everyone kept telling me how nice I looked, but I could only smile. I felt completely uncomfortable and, as much as I loved the bride, couldn’t wait for the wedding to be over with so I could get home and get in something comfortable.
So, here is my question: How many readers have body issues and what are they, if you’ll share.
I can’t believe that I’m the only one with body issues that run as deep as they do.