Feel Like I Have No Worth
Andy said: "Oh yeah, I believe you...but when the same horrible things keep happening to you over and over, and people keep doing the same things, you have to stop blaming them and at least start asking yourself what you're doing to deserve it."
I wanna sarcastically dissemble this argument but I innately know he's right. I am fucked...somehow. And I can't figure out how to make myself lesser and smaller and obedient and easy to manage.
I hate me.
I don't know how I got this way or if I can fix it. I just feel ugly and repulsive and dumb. A lot.