Another Day In My Life . . .
Ha good morning, and back to the rutine update in science class for a friday.
i went to bed last night at about 10.30pm this was because i had a phone call from cameron ;) yeha wat the?! ha he was being a typical 19yr old male, he recons hes gunna be my first lol he wishes he could have the privalige!
i also msg jarad all nite he was at the pub for the 3rd time for the week. he had a real bumber of a day, i feel so bad that i cant make things better for him like he dose for me, maybe i do?? i dunno he seemd fine and really un soba when i rang him, i think he drunk himself to sleep, wouldnt suprise me. i get to see him saturday :) whoo hoo so excited!
ha you know wat? just as i finally decide about jonno he msgs me a new song, "heres you letter"- blink182
it gose on about a guy who still needs time to fix up his meaningless life now that hes lost his gurl. i kinda felt bad, but i cant feel the same about you anymore jonno, its just the way you turned it out to be, just like you said it would be, i cant feel the same about you anymore! all i want is to talk to the guy, i mean its been over 2 weeks scince we've talkd last, and now its just getting imature and pathetic. wats the deal? dose he think i wana talk about the brake up? no, ive got more interesting things going on in my life atm, why do i wanna live in the past? its not possible theres just to much "wat if's" and "i shoulda" it just hurts, cant and wont do that to myself!
speaking of interesting things going on in my life, besides cameron wanting to get down my pants, ha he has to beat jess! ha im so falling for him! he makes me feel so awsome all the time, like before i went to bed lastnight i msgd him and he msgd back saying "i wish you where here laying next to me, i want to sex u all the time" lol hes so cute! i really want to go down to narragon like as soon as i can! i want him so bad and miss him just as much! im thinking about msg him a song, but im kinda like .... hmm thats kinda mine and jonnos thing, itd b wired??! oh well id end up doing it anywayz probbly
shit i forgot to mention about sarah! yeha total pain in the arse at the oment. shes msgd everyone trying to explain herself, using the im mentaly sick exsacpe goat to excuse her actions to all of us!
frankly she did this to herslef and she diserves wat she gets!
i wish she would stop and grow the fuck up!
i also got a phone call from darren, yeha his girlfriend at the moment dosnt even know that darren cheated on her with sarah, when sarah cheated on catilin. i really think he should tell her coz if someone tells her before him shel be crushed! but from wat i hear, he dosnt sound like he really cares anymore, thats how much sarah screwd him round!
tonight we have some dinner with aquines and all the yr 11's at boarding schools in perth are going, im kinda a bit like errhh, coz i have so much stuff to get done because i havent been here all week, and updateing my journal isnt helping i guess. im more fritend i mite see jonno, and all those dead feelings that i have for him, im scard that theyl wake up, and screw me up! but then again i wana go coz all my mates from other schools will be there and itl b good to catch up, you never know i might not even see jonno there, he probbly wont even go! id be a total bonous if narrogin went, then id get to see jess!
ha bobie and i were looking through her year book that jess made, and ohh my god! theres this pic of jess with black hair, he looked so damm hot! ha i was like hay bob get him to die his hair black again :) nar hes fucking gorgouse anyways lol
k well i think i best be off coz all im going to do for the next 20mins is go on about jess and thats just insaine.
lov shaahni
p.s i get to finaly meet callans women on sunday, bit nervous about it acctualy :$
i went to bed last night at about 10.30pm this was because i had a phone call from cameron ;) yeha wat the?! ha he was being a typical 19yr old male, he recons hes gunna be my first lol he wishes he could have the privalige!
i also msg jarad all nite he was at the pub for the 3rd time for the week. he had a real bumber of a day, i feel so bad that i cant make things better for him like he dose for me, maybe i do?? i dunno he seemd fine and really un soba when i rang him, i think he drunk himself to sleep, wouldnt suprise me. i get to see him saturday :) whoo hoo so excited!
ha you know wat? just as i finally decide about jonno he msgs me a new song, "heres you letter"- blink182
it gose on about a guy who still needs time to fix up his meaningless life now that hes lost his gurl. i kinda felt bad, but i cant feel the same about you anymore jonno, its just the way you turned it out to be, just like you said it would be, i cant feel the same about you anymore! all i want is to talk to the guy, i mean its been over 2 weeks scince we've talkd last, and now its just getting imature and pathetic. wats the deal? dose he think i wana talk about the brake up? no, ive got more interesting things going on in my life atm, why do i wanna live in the past? its not possible theres just to much "wat if's" and "i shoulda" it just hurts, cant and wont do that to myself!
speaking of interesting things going on in my life, besides cameron wanting to get down my pants, ha he has to beat jess! ha im so falling for him! he makes me feel so awsome all the time, like before i went to bed lastnight i msgd him and he msgd back saying "i wish you where here laying next to me, i want to sex u all the time" lol hes so cute! i really want to go down to narragon like as soon as i can! i want him so bad and miss him just as much! im thinking about msg him a song, but im kinda like .... hmm thats kinda mine and jonnos thing, itd b wired??! oh well id end up doing it anywayz probbly
shit i forgot to mention about sarah! yeha total pain in the arse at the oment. shes msgd everyone trying to explain herself, using the im mentaly sick exsacpe goat to excuse her actions to all of us!
frankly she did this to herslef and she diserves wat she gets!
i wish she would stop and grow the fuck up!
i also got a phone call from darren, yeha his girlfriend at the moment dosnt even know that darren cheated on her with sarah, when sarah cheated on catilin. i really think he should tell her coz if someone tells her before him shel be crushed! but from wat i hear, he dosnt sound like he really cares anymore, thats how much sarah screwd him round!
tonight we have some dinner with aquines and all the yr 11's at boarding schools in perth are going, im kinda a bit like errhh, coz i have so much stuff to get done because i havent been here all week, and updateing my journal isnt helping i guess. im more fritend i mite see jonno, and all those dead feelings that i have for him, im scard that theyl wake up, and screw me up! but then again i wana go coz all my mates from other schools will be there and itl b good to catch up, you never know i might not even see jonno there, he probbly wont even go! id be a total bonous if narrogin went, then id get to see jess!
ha bobie and i were looking through her year book that jess made, and ohh my god! theres this pic of jess with black hair, he looked so damm hot! ha i was like hay bob get him to die his hair black again :) nar hes fucking gorgouse anyways lol
k well i think i best be off coz all im going to do for the next 20mins is go on about jess and thats just insaine.
lov shaahni
p.s i get to finaly meet callans women on sunday, bit nervous about it acctualy :$