hummm..

[navastar]

wow..umm..i dont know what to say? everything is going okie i guess..i am really starting to miss jeremy a lot..i dont know how long i can last..i mean i want to wait for him but i dont know how long i can..i love him soo much and i dont want to lose him but all at the same time i dont know how much more longer i can live without him. i know he will be here soon...just not soon enough..yesterday i got an message on my myspace from this girl asking me if me and jeremy were together..she told me that her and 2 other girls were going out with him? yeah i got a lil freaked out about that..i was very angery i never felt so angery..but i talked to him and he told me that the girl was just mad b/c he wouldnt go out with her..and i beleave him..i love jeremy with all my heart and i know that he would never want to do anything to hurt me..he deleted his myspace and i didnt even ask him to..i feel really bad about it cause it just doesnt seem fair to me that he doesnt get one and i do? idk maybe im just being weird about it? i havent talked to him today..:-/ but im sure he'll call me soon and if not then idk..i just sometimes i get upset a lil when he doesnt call me through out the day but u know what we dont need to talk all the time..it just sucks..GOD! i almost want to cry that is how much i miss him..i just keep having all the time we spent together while he was here running threw my head and i dream about it all the time..and it always makes me teary eyed? i just really dont think he knows or even understands how much he means to me..i knew from the moment he held my hand for the 1st time that i am going to marry him..
~THE REAL ME~