Hey everyone...I guess I'm gonna update this bitch now...
Ok Will...I'm updating this thing...lol!! just for u!! I love spending time wit chu baby!! well i'm gonna write about shit that probably no body knows/cares bout but u... I love you!
I have a lot of shit going on in school ...w/ friends mainly...It's like I'm finally happy but then again, people can't be happy for me because I am happy. The friends I thought I had are steadily drifting away. I hate it! I've gotten in alot of trouble here l8tly where my g'ma has almost called the cops on me twice in the past 2 weeks...I just can't seem to keep my ass outta trouble...But one of the weird things is....I'm the ONLY one that gets grounded...maybe it's because my brother and sister are both 18 or older or maybe it's just cause I'm the "bad kid" in the family or as my aunt would say "Y do u have to be the destructive little family Goth? Can't u just be normal? Stop giving your grandparents so much crap!!" I'm not sure all the time what I do to cause them so much pain or why they return the favor so greatly. I know that they just care about me and don't want me to get hurt but in some ways I'm more destructive to myself than anyone else is! Well here is a poem I wrote last night for them!! I know they'll probably never read it but oh well...At first I wasn't gonna put it on here but I don't really care ne more it don't matta to me...here it is..and I might put the lyrics to the song I'm listening to on here too...i dunno yet ... Well I love ya'll ttyl...whenever I get off being grounded...
Maybe if... BY: Navaeh on 4/22/05
Maybe if, my music is loud enough,
They won't hear my screams,
Maybe if, I was a better kid,
They would love me more,
Maybe if, I did what they wanted,
They wouldn't yell at me,
Maybe if, I try to erase the pain,
It will slowly go away,
Maybe if, I didn't do the things I do,
They wouldn't hate me this much,
Maybe if, I tried harder,
They would slowly start to love me again,
Maybe if, I wasn't a punk,
They wouldn't judge me,
Maybe if, I didn't feel the pain,
I wouldn't cry as much,
Maybe if, I wasn't here,
They would finally be happy...
Avenged Sevenfold
I Won't See You Tonight part: 1
Cry alone, I've gone away,
No more nights, no more pain,
I've gone alone, took all my strength,
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight.
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood,
all the ones around me,
I cared for and (loved) most of all loved,
but I can't see myself that way,
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away,
It all built up, inside of me,
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free,
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame,
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight,
So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.
No more breath inside,
Essence left my heart tonight.
I have a lot of shit going on in school ...w/ friends mainly...It's like I'm finally happy but then again, people can't be happy for me because I am happy. The friends I thought I had are steadily drifting away. I hate it! I've gotten in alot of trouble here l8tly where my g'ma has almost called the cops on me twice in the past 2 weeks...I just can't seem to keep my ass outta trouble...But one of the weird things is....I'm the ONLY one that gets grounded...maybe it's because my brother and sister are both 18 or older or maybe it's just cause I'm the "bad kid" in the family or as my aunt would say "Y do u have to be the destructive little family Goth? Can't u just be normal? Stop giving your grandparents so much crap!!" I'm not sure all the time what I do to cause them so much pain or why they return the favor so greatly. I know that they just care about me and don't want me to get hurt but in some ways I'm more destructive to myself than anyone else is! Well here is a poem I wrote last night for them!! I know they'll probably never read it but oh well...At first I wasn't gonna put it on here but I don't really care ne more it don't matta to me...here it is..and I might put the lyrics to the song I'm listening to on here too...i dunno yet ... Well I love ya'll ttyl...whenever I get off being grounded...
Maybe if... BY: Navaeh on 4/22/05
Maybe if, my music is loud enough,
They won't hear my screams,
Maybe if, I was a better kid,
They would love me more,
Maybe if, I did what they wanted,
They wouldn't yell at me,
Maybe if, I try to erase the pain,
It will slowly go away,
Maybe if, I didn't do the things I do,
They wouldn't hate me this much,
Maybe if, I tried harder,
They would slowly start to love me again,
Maybe if, I wasn't a punk,
They wouldn't judge me,
Maybe if, I didn't feel the pain,
I wouldn't cry as much,
Maybe if, I wasn't here,
They would finally be happy...
Avenged Sevenfold
I Won't See You Tonight part: 1
Cry alone, I've gone away,
No more nights, no more pain,
I've gone alone, took all my strength,
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight.
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood,
all the ones around me,
I cared for and (loved) most of all loved,
but I can't see myself that way,
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away,
It all built up, inside of me,
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free,
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame,
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight,
So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.
No more breath inside,
Essence left my heart tonight.