i hear the silence but it sounds so strange
so i moved out.THANK GOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo no more carries bitch!! haHAAAA!!!!! yay!! so that began a great week...end i guess.
derek has been freaking me out. first he was acting like a jerk, and the other night he asked me if i really wanted to be with him, or was it just because i have wanted him for so long that it just seemed like i did. bascially i started balling and it was ugly. but i don't know, something's different. not sure what, but something really is. i think he might be getting tired of not seeing me and not being able to hang out with me more. i mean, it bugs me too, but it makes the time we do see eachother soooo much better. grrr like i told him, sometimes i feel like i'm in too deep with him. cuz i KNOW if anything happened, i wouldn't recover.
on a waaaay lighter note, i put a down payment on my tat today. yes,you can do that. actually, dark star requires it. wierd, i know. but i have an app. next wed. to get it done. and im totally stoked and can't flippin wait. don't even worry, i'll have katie post pics of not only me getting it done, but the final ...probably really red and painfull...result :)
never live life in regret right? hell yes
derek has been freaking me out. first he was acting like a jerk, and the other night he asked me if i really wanted to be with him, or was it just because i have wanted him for so long that it just seemed like i did. bascially i started balling and it was ugly. but i don't know, something's different. not sure what, but something really is. i think he might be getting tired of not seeing me and not being able to hang out with me more. i mean, it bugs me too, but it makes the time we do see eachother soooo much better. grrr like i told him, sometimes i feel like i'm in too deep with him. cuz i KNOW if anything happened, i wouldn't recover.
on a waaaay lighter note, i put a down payment on my tat today. yes,you can do that. actually, dark star requires it. wierd, i know. but i have an app. next wed. to get it done. and im totally stoked and can't flippin wait. don't even worry, i'll have katie post pics of not only me getting it done, but the final ...probably really red and painfull...result :)
never live life in regret right? hell yes