missing a lot
I miss a lot of people that used to be an integral part of my life. Although, in reality I've faltered in my relationships with them, not in an offensive way, but rather in perhaps, a dismissive way. And it's not by choice that I neglected them but because life always takes you on another path that your schedules never seem to meet up, or you're so enthralled in your monotonous events that time passes. With time the bond dwindles, not exactly disappearing or getting weaker, but rather just remaining stagnant. When you are not physically present to witness your friends, family or loved ones grow emotionally, mentally and physically, you are in essence losing history between you and them. It's kind of like trying to catch up with your readings or a history book, but if you don't space out your time with the reading, you really have a hard time understanding it within a short period of time. The same phenomena occurs when a spacial and temporal gap widens between you and your loved ones. It's natural and the only thing one can do is accept it and don't expect them to be the "same" person as you "used" to know them. Because in essence, you don't know them anymore; people grow in many ways and directions, become wiser, develop new tastes, priorities.