I don't care...
You ever really not care anymore? That is the point where I am at right now with things. Not anything in my career just with some things I used to enjoy. I just really don't care anymore and I can't articulate this to my future spouse at all. The apathy has taken hold and I don't even care that she knows...maybe not even wanting her to know. This came up about a concert I am suppose to be meeting her at and I don't know if I really care to go. I am feeling a great dissconnect right now, from her, the world and everyone really. The best way I can summarize it as is the Dr.Manhatten syndrom because I feel just like Dr. Mahatten does in Watchmen. I don't know what this means and whether I should pursue it or run away from it. I'll figure it out sooner or later...
On lighter side, I do find the Symphony of Science truely inspiration and I think it may be fueling my dissconnect actually. Here is a taste of awesomeness:
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